Steve's Blog - Thoughts and Rants of a Christian Student and Street Pastor

So... the world hasn't ended... or I've not been raptured...

2011-05-24T00:39:00.000+01:00

I merely offer this blog as a viewpoint and my own reflections as a Christian with regards to the false prophesy of the world ending on 21st May 2011.

It’s now just about three days past the day in which Harold Camping got his second prediction about the world coming to an end and the righteous being raptured wrong, previously, it was September 1994.

The majority of Christendom quite rightly identified this to be another false prophecy and simply responded with the words of Matthew 24 verse 36 where Jesus tells us “But about that day or hour no one knows, not even the angels in heaven, nor the Son, but only the Father.”

The simple truth is only Father God knows when Jesus will return, and whilst many feel we are indeed living in the end times, its unwise to make any predictions. Rather, the challenge to us is to live our lives in pursuit of Holiness and in obedience of God, aiming to become more like Jesus with every passing minute through the power of the Holy Spirit, being ready for his return whenever it may be… something which most of (if not all) struggle with, but that’s ok, because when we acknowledge this, we grow more in God (2 Corinthians 12:9), but at the end of the day, we simply do not know when but we know by faith that Jesus will return.

Now, I would certainly admit that I’m a bit of a computer geek, and as 6pm came and went on Saturday evening I found myself glued to Twitter reading people’s tweets in response to the prophesied worldwide earthquake and rapture not occurring. The majority of these tweets were sarcastic and generally harmless banter, but I was drawn by a couple of points made.

Firstly, the response by some of the Atheist community was particularly hostile towards all of Christianity, giving all Christians various labels such as gullible, brainwashed or sanctimonious bigots. For me this is nothing new, when out as a Street Pastor, I’ve often come across general stereotyping of Christians, but I couldn’t help but stand up to these comments in defence by arguing that one cannot make a fair judgement on the majority due to the actions of the minority. Perhaps this was a bit of a mistake, I soon found myself bombarded with Atheist dogma on Twitter, but I’m still glad I made the point.

It then occurred to me that as Christians we should never be afraid to stand up to what is blatantly incorrect, unjust or in defence of the church, or of a brother or sister. Peter also tells us “but in your hearts revere Christ as Lord. Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. But do this with gentleness and respect” (1 Peter 3:15). Also, when faced with others in society passing these judgements over us, it can be difficult to heed what Jesus says in Matthew 5:43-44 “You have heard that it was said, ‘Love your neighbour and hate your enemy.’ But I tell you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you.” By lifting these people to God we are showing compassion and love rather than passing our own judgement over them.

The second point I took note of was the sheer scale of the deception of this prophecy. So many Christians around the world were deceived, in some cases, many gave large sums of money (including life savings and by selling of all they had) to Family Radio others spent large sums of money on making billboards of their own. In one case in the US, a mother murdered her 6 year old son in fear of what she felt was the coming rapture. When hearing about this, my heart sank. I felt so sorry for these individuals who thought they were serving God. I do wonder now the confusion they must feel and whether some of them have walked away from God entirely…

Either way, I feel that the Holy Spirit has really led me to really pray for these individuals, and indeed, Harold Camping. Prayer that their eyes will be opened, that they will encounter God, a God who has not abandoned them, a merciful God who has his arms wide open for them to run into, a God who is ready to pour out blessing and heal broken hearts and restore faith.

I really do wish to echo the numerous calls for Christians everywhere to pray for these people, and especially Harold Camping instead of resorting to mocking and insulting them.

Also pray for the numerous non-believers and those who consider the failure of this prophecy to be a victory for Atheism. We know that God already has the victory, but it proves the truth in the words of Jesus: “But about that day or hour no one knows, not even the angels in heaven, nor the Son, but only the Father”. Praise and Glory be to God.

Exam-Eve...

2011-05-08T15:52:00.000+01:00

So, finally, the time of the Exams has just about arrived… yet as I write this blog (which is again, a considerable time since I last wrote on this blog!) I don’t really feel any nerves or anxiety about these exams. Why? I’ve spent a lot of this afternoon asking this question…

Ok, so I have spent considerable time praying and seeking God, but also have been regularly meeting up with a group of other students to revise the material even though we’ve only had like around 4 weeks to revise an enormous amount of material due to the UEA kindly giving us like 4 – 5 exams in a single week, right at the start of the examination period.

So, I accepted from an early stage that the amount of material they expect us to revise in such a short period is simply impossible… but I do know that I’ve simply made quite a conscious decision to “go in and do my best” regardless… I do think there is only so much revision one can do in a single day and it’s a total waste of time giving yourself a headache over it… so I guess in some ways I feel I’m about as ready as I’ll be for the next two days… (I do feel sorry for colleagues have an economics exam on Thursday too…), although I do have a programming exam on the 3^rd of June… but with the best part of 4 weeks to revise a single module, I’m not particularly worried.

So, bag is packed, have booked a room at the University for two nights, all in a bed to reduce stress (the drive in is not exactly pleasant!) I just pray that what I do in the exams will be enough for a good result… although I’m a little anxious about Introduction to Organisational Behaviour…

However, it has been one heck of a journey and meeting up with other students in a revision group was a joyful and very helpful use of time... I just hope they too do well in the exams... (you know who you are!!!)

A Six Month Roller Coaster Ride

2011-03-23T01:16:00.003Z

Wow... is all I can say really...

Six months on and have just completed all of this Academic year's coursework. Whilst this serves as a huge relief, I now find myself reflecting on what I would describe as being a Six Month Roller Coaster ride. I can't seem to fathom just how quick time has moved either... feels like 5 minutes ago I was attending University for the very first time.

As I reflect though, I do feel proud of what I have managed to achieve during this time, I'm overall pleased with coursework marks (achieving even 1:1 in a couple of assignments). However, this has not been pain free...

Learning to program in Java has been especially tough and has generally not helped my beer and Haribo consumption... not to mention it has led to many late night coding sessions (sometimes lasting until the early hours!). Whilst I feel good to have overcome what was a big hurdle, I still do not see how I would every apply Java in my life or career... it simply just doesn't interest me... but it’s not as dry as Intro to Financial and Management Accounting... oh my word... if there is one module I cannot wait to see the back of, this would be it... it’s so tempting and easy to stereotype Accountants now that’s for sure! I'm considering burning the text book to celebrate once the exam is done.

The essay writing side of things however has not been too bad, I suppose in my previous roles as an IT Training professional, I was very used to writing large amounts of text as well as user guides, articles etc... In some ways, I feel this skill has been transferable with the main challenge being to write academically... rather than in the style of a practitioner.

It may also only be six months on, but I know also for a fact that I have met some fantastic people and I believe to have also established the foundation for some lifelong friendships :)

Well, just the exam period left now... so just to use the time to read up on things... hopefully also meet up with colleagues to revise as a group too... following the exams, I get to marry to woman of my dreams :).

Will feel different going back to University for the 2nd year as a married man...

However, I am thankful to Claire, she has been a pillar of support through this first year and I know she will continue to be so. Also, I firmly believe that without God... I would have struggled far more... so I thank God for always being there, especially when things got so tough and stress become overpowering... thank you Jesus for answering my many prayers and for the answers to the prayers I know I will pray in the coming months, I pray that my achievements glorify your name!

Ethical to block hacking?

2011-02-28T12:50:00.001Z

So, today I read this article posted on the BBC website about companies such as Sony not allowing owners of PS3 or other devices "modify" or "hack" them.

As I read, I began thinking again about the ethics of such moves, particularly by Sony.

Right to Modify

The article uses a good example of when you buy a car and pay outright for it, then you have every right to modify it if you wish... of course, many of us accept the fact that this usually voids warranties and in the case of cars, has insurance implications, which is another area. The point is, the car is your property... the legal ownership has moved from the manufacturer to you, therefore, legally speaking, you can modify it if you see it fit to do so.

So, what is the difference with Games consoles or other electronic devices (except, in most cases they cost significantly less than a car!)?

Games Consoles vs. PCs / Macs

Take Sony as an example with the Playstation 3... now, owners of a PS3 can range from those who class themselves not as enthusiasts and those who do... typically, for an enthusiast use of the device would be more than just playing games or watching movies. This is where the so called "Hacks" come in... Generally speaking, hacking would specifically link to altering the software of the device in question... in the PS3's case, the Operating System.

Legally speaking, this is where the issue hits mainly because when you purchase something such as a Playstation 3 or indeed even a DVD copy of Microsoft Windows 7, whilst you legally "own" the physical object such as the console or the disc, the intangible elements of it, namely, the software, you actually "license" from the manufacturer, meaning you have the right to use it, but you do not own it outright... this is the focus of the majority of the controversy.

So are manufacturers right to be making moves to try and block hacking?; or are they just being overly anal?

Personally, I do not think there is one definite answer to this, whilst legally speaking, the manufacturers have every right to do something, equally speaking, it can be argued that enthusiasts hacking these devices are causing no real damage on the whole... in fact, interestingly enough, Microsoft have actually opened the Kinect up to to this in order to expand its functionality, quite a shrewd move and one that "Sony has aspirations for with its move controller".

In fact this has opened the devices to a far wider scale, in which some academics have found some extremely serious uses for.

So, back to the question... is it ethical for manufacturers to block such things? In truth, I personally do not see a definite answer either way... one one hand, people pay a lot of money for these devices, on the other hand, the legal agreements stipulate the license of such software... However, one thing is for sure, users should never be forced to keep with an operating system they do wish to use... if enthusiasts are developing entirely new systems, then in my view, the manufacturers have absolutely no say what so every, unless the said system breaches copyrights, patents etc.... and interestingly, the UK as far as I'm aware does not recognise software patents...

However, I do feel strongly that manufacturers need to be explicitly clearer about this, at the moment, they seem to hide all of this amongst lengthy, legalised small print which many people find mundane and dam near impossible to read... so on that basis, I do think manufacturers should take measures to make buyers aware by providing simple, unambiguous text and have it available for someone to read prior to purchasing.

Just a few of my thoughts...

Irrational Decisions

2011-02-17T15:29:00.003Z

I'm sure we've all got our own opinions of what makes something rational or irrational... sometimes, many have the same or similar thoughts...

Well lets take a recent situation that has sparked controversy at the University of East Anglia, more specifically, the impending decision taken by the School of Computing Sciences to ban laptop use within lectures.

...but why is this irrational?... I hear you say.

Firstly, I will state that I am a laptop user and I feel that being able to use a small laptop to take notes (primarily using Microsoft OneNote 2010) has enabled me to firstly keep pace with the lecture as well as create a set of highly organised, cohesive and logical notes, which are clearly legible and have the added benefit of appeasing the green brigade... i.e. I'm not printing a ton of paper which ultimately gets screwed up.

The ban was the result of a meeting of the Staff-Student Liaison Committee (SSLC) where one of the reps raised a complaint from several students that those with laptops are causing distractions through procrastinating on video games etc... whilst most agree this is a valid point, surely a wider consultation should been held prior to even raising the point to get a general consensus on how the majority feel?, neither I, nor the majority or students were actually consulted. Instead, the answer was a ban... quite autocratic right?

Well, rumours began to circulate, and before long the arguments started, arguments which seemed to cause a chasm to open between both students and lecturers alike... I personally felt this decision was doing an injustice to those innocent of what was being complained about, and as such failed to take into any consideration that there would be a minority of innocent students affected... and so, in protest, this Facebook group was created...

Now apparently, according communication from reps and indeed, the Union of UEA Students, the decision had not yet actually been made/was official... meaning that laptop use could go on... well... additional controversy was stirred when some lecturers decided to enforce this decision... resulting in some truly shocking things... such as disabled people being asked to make themselves known quite publicly within a lecture to have special permission to use laptops... (yes, this is illegal...), of course, upsetting those with disabilities... and incurring the wrath of the Dean of Students... quite frankly, whether illegal or not, many feel its an utter disgrace and totally unacceptable for a lecturer to conduct themselves in this manner...

Otherwise, in general, it has also brought students into conflict with lecturers... generally through standing up and refusing to close laptops when no ban is apparently in place, or in general defiance and protest, action also threatened by members of both the ndergraduate and postgraduate communities.

Of course, I oppose the ban (just incase you do not realise this yet...) but certainly myself and others, who use laptops for note taking etc. feel that playing games and such on a laptop during a lecture is an unacceptable thing to do...

Now surely a far more adult and responsible thing to do is to simply challenge the offending student over their conduct, and it it bothers people so much, why not move to a different seat? On the flip side... surely, a wider consensus had to have been taken in the first place before such an issue was raised with the SSLC? Does this alone not qualify the decision as irrational?

Another argument presented is that as students, we are paying large amounts of money to be at University, surely it should be down to the students, NOT academic staff as to what method they choose to take notes in lectures? Equally, those not using laptops do indeed have the same right... in some ways, the whole argument on fees negates itself, because everyone is effectively in the same boat... i.e. I have a right to use my laptop to take notes, and not be disturbed by others but Joe Bloggs has just as much right to take handwritten notes and not be disturbed by others...

Being realistic though, the above argument has a point in mentioning disturbances... Laptop users are on the whole a minority... the majority of procrastination and disturbance comes from students either talking, making unnecessary noise or playing with mobile phones... but it seems the SSLC forgot to mention this let alone take any note of it?!

Speaking with some lecturers both within and outside of Computing Sciences, there does seem to be confusion as to why ban laptops, but nothing else... and agreement that this decision is irrational simply because it was limited only to Laptops... when they all feel mobile phones in particular are a far bigger problem...

However, on the plus side, there will be an open SSLC meeting on 23rd February to allow students the opportunity to have their say (hurrah!!!!)... hopefully, the whole issue can be put to bed and forgotten...let's think... it is probably a safe assumption that the majority of students would be indifferent to the ban anyway with a minority supporting it.... certainly, it would appear that there is significant opposition to it from all over the University... quite scary that and issue that has stark consequences for an overall minority has prooven so divisive...

At least though, the majority wish to see a rational outcome and pot, lets hope relationships can be restored/maintained... but If you ask me... I find the whole thing has caused embarrassment to the School of Computing Sciences... despite the fact that some lecturers are chilled out... perhaps, my closing question should be... where is the logic in removing computers from computing lectures?

So it begins... 2011

2011-01-02T22:36:00.003Z

What will this year have in store?

Well so far, its been largely crappy for reasons I cannot go into... however on the plus side, there is quite a lot to look forward to this year...

Resuming University studies later this month but before that, its a trip down memory lane as I undertake a ICT teaching assistant placement at Ormiston Venture Academy (formally, Oriel High School.... yes my old high school) courtesy of the UEA School of Education. I do admit though, this I am looking forward to as I do aspire to become a teacher.

Hopefully, Semester 2 will go well and lead nicely into Easter followed by Exams for Year 1... and then the big highlight of the year... myself and Claire get married!

For the time being, time to leave the past and look to the future, a new year, a fresh start! But boy am I looking forward to seeing friends at University again.

Uni is out... and Christmas beckons...

2010-12-19T23:36:00.000Z

Well, sure has been a while since I last posted an update to this blog... but then it has been pretty busy at University.

However, the last 12 weeks have just seemed to fly by in no time at all... on the whole, the areas I am studying are enjoyable. A lot has happened during this time also, one being the government's decision on tuition fees effective from 2012... I do have my opinions on this issue, but will not go into it here... I am still thinking about blogging about that though.

Anyways, cutting this quick post short... the Apprentice final has just been made available on iPlayer!

Mathematics and Fear

2010-10-19T19:32:00.002+01:00

Of all the things you could have that moment of fight or flight, I never once thought something so intangible as mathematics could produce it... until yesterday.

Those who know me know that Maths is far from being my strongest skill... in fact, they know that I generally try and avoid any sort of maths if possible... however, the University wants to make us all better at maths which is why I attend maths classes at the University. Improving at maths however, is something I would like very much... however, it feels like such a huge step... I barely scraped a C at GCSE. Ok, a big part of me wants to blame the majority of the class back in high school who disrupted it and sent 3 teachers packing with nervous breakdowns... however, blame will not help now... instead I want to salvage what Maths skill I have and develop in areas of Maths which I am weak...

Well, I have found out that the University literally bends over backwards to support those who want to learn and improve in Maths... the tutorials with Robert at the Dean of Students office are fantastic and I have learnt some new maths skill from these... however, I was not prepared to experience fight or flight feelings through simplifying equations with powers... I literally stood there looking at the whiteboard with this problem that needed simplifying. I was shaking, sweating and to be honest, just wanting to go somewhere private and cry...

It was a truly rotten feeling, I felt stupid, silly and thick... and now I fear this happening again... fortunately, I'm not alone, there are others who today said they had the same concerns with their maths ability. Myself and another student are going to get together tomorrow to begin working through some of the exercises in the Quantitative Methods textbook.

Additionally, I've decided to invest in some private tuition to help bolster my understanding...

Thirdly, I need to hold on the belief and my faith that Jesus will meet me in this fear... and that his love will render it powerless :) I know I can overcome this... and I know I can improve my maths ability....

Latest Goings on in Academia

2010-10-12T15:46:00.000+01:00

Well, now in Week 3 of University Study and I can honestly say the work is beginning to pile up. Its a bit of a psychological fight though... one moment it feels unsettling but then the next all is good.

Having reflected over the last week again on my decision to study at University, I find myself with no regrets at all and firmly believe it was a smart move considering that many IT Trainers I know are either now out of work or are working, but for lower rates which barely pay the expenses bills.

The subjects I am studying however are proving to be interesting... I never thought of accounting as being an interesting topic, but after getting into it a bit, I have found it surprisingly interesting! Ok, its just one small part of my degree, but good none the less. The added benefit here is the additional skills I am learning which would also be very useful in day to day life.

On the flip side, one of our Computing lecturers, (as a nice a guy as he is)... unfortunately seems to lack organisational skills... we must have half of the lecture this morning sitting doing nothing whilst he attempted to locate an example of what he was saying... being true in IT form... he blamed the computer... which incidentally was an Apple Mac Book Pro... which goes along with my already abysmal opinion of Apple...

Either way, several of us were not really impressed with this lecture... especially as some slides of the power point were simply skimmed over faster than light...

Oh well, another fun filled day, enjoying a quick pint of Wherry Ale in the Union Bar before meeting with a fellow student to talk about tomorrow's seminar. Hope to be away from University tonight at about 6ish.

Soggy Start to University...

2010-10-04T13:20:00.000+01:00

...but very good none the less!

So, now in week two of my first year of study at the UEA and already I'm feeling very comfortable.. in fact, the subjects of study excite me! Over the last week I feel I have become quite familiar with the various union facilities, particularly the Hive cafe which serves excellent coffee and fresh fruit juice (I'm sat in the hive now, whilst I type this blog!)

Lectures at first sound very stereotypical... long and boring. In fact, I have found them anything but that! The time flies by in a lecture, I am finding the subject matter extremely interesting and generally get excited to research it more!

So far I have completed one essay - which admittedly, was rather cruel being handwritten and 4 - 6 sides of A4. The subject was technology and student life, it was fun researching, but the handwriting element got painful but mentally and physically! (especially when referencing!). Well, its out of the way now, it was good to experience it this way, the essay wont count towards any unit marks, but allows the University to also advise on English skills and legibility of handwriting.

My degree is a joint degree awarded by the School of Computing Sciences and Norwich Business School. So, the subjects I am studying this year are are mainly business related, but do include computing as well:

Computing Systems 1
Information Systems and Business Research
Introduction to Business
Introduction to Financial and Management Accounting
Introduction to Organisational Behaviour
Programming

Quite intense, but very enjoyable!

University Beckons...

2010-09-23T10:48:00.001+01:00

Well, by this time next week, I will be approaching the end of freshers week at the UEA and will likely have begun study. Earlier this week, I attended the UEA's Mature Student Induction Day and I have to say I really rated the day and that it has given a lot of reassurance in my decision to go to University for the next three years.

During this day, I also met a couple of fellow Computing Sciences students and believe that at least a few new friendships are forming, particularly with one guy called Andy. Myself and Andy both found a common ground in motivation for coming to university and the fact we are both seriously considering Teaching ICT as a career. On a personality front, we have a very similar dry sense of humour which worked well.

So, my University experience so far is one that is very positive and the induction day really just fanned the flames of excitement... sure, a lot of hard work lies ahead, but I know I will succeed at doing it, and am confident with the support of both friends and family.

Roll on Monday!...

Christian Evangelism in Today’s Society

2010-09-12T22:44:00.004+01:00

Society today is in many people’s opinion forever changing and is increasingly becoming more about me, me and me. Today’s society could often be described as selfish, secular and post-modern. So how can the church perform effective evangelism in a society that is growing increasingly sceptical and rejecting?

Billy Graham Rally

When many Christians think of evangelists and/or the word evangelism, they will often think of big rallies attended by hundreds or thousands of people listening to the words of a preacher. As a result, these people feel convicted and respond by offering their lives to Jesus Christ. Billy Graham was one such evangelist and led many to the Lord. However, why does this kind of evangelism not seem work on the whole or indeed happen in today’s society though?

Binge Drinking Culture of Today

Unfortunately, society today is very broken with some major issues already obvious and many more now beginning to emerge such as rejection, young people growing up without a father or mother not to mention consumerism, materialism, sexual promiscuity, idolatry, binge drinking, drugs and homelessness. Of course, none of these things are helped by the economic mess the world is in resulting in several generations likely having to pay off Debt for the majority of their lives, largely through no fault of their own.

However, despite the negative aspects of society, there are some major positives within society today including extreme hunger for identity, the supernatural and spiritual truth.

Lakeland Revival in 2008

Ok, so mass rallies are a rarity these days, but they do still happen! One such example was the Lakeland revival in Florida, however on the whole; the typical person today will generally take offence to being preached to; and whilst a minority may step into a church, the majority will not mainly due to fear of being judged or condemned because of the life they have had and/or negative past experience or rejection holding them back.

Why it is many non-Christians today are afraid of Church?

Unfortunately, the Church today is on the whole too reliant on tradition and the “tried and tested only” model and disliking the very thought of stepping out from the boat and trying something new when it comes to bringing the good news of Jesus Christ to society.

As mentioned earlier, despite being largely secular and sceptical, people in society today are hungrier than ever for spiritual truth and identity…Therefore, it is vitally important that the church reaches out to these people who long for truth. Unfortunately though, it seems that many Christians decide to adopt a passive evangelistic approach where they hope for the lost to come to them. So combining this with the fear that people in society today have of Church would ultimately result in ineffective evangelism.

Now as Christians and followers of Jesus Christ, we should all be in agreement that love cannot be passive… well the same can be said of evangelism… passive evangelism is not evangelism much like passive love is not love. To rely on a passive evangelist model of “people will come to a church service on a Sunday” is flawed. Effective evangelism requires reaching out in Faith. Evangelism by faith very often involves taking risks and stepping out of the boat… for example, as a Street Pastor, I will offer practical help to somebody who is vomiting or laying in the street for whatever reason. Faith allows me to do this because by this faith I know it will make a difference to that person and please God, thus empowering me to put aside my feelings of “ugh that’s disgusting, I don’t want to get messed up, or those other people will laugh at me”. I cannot prevent the person saying no, but if they refuse my help, then I will not feel rejected, because a step of Faith was taken to reach out, it sends an indirect message that someone else cares about them…

Remember, the word also says: “In the same way, faith by itself, if it is not accompanied by action, is dead” – (James 2:17).

Now, the word Outreach means to look outwards and reach out… Jesus never told us to remain in the building with the doors open hoping people would come… Jesus said: “Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.” (Matthew 28:19-20).

The great commission is not complicated and there certainly is no mention of remaining in Church buildings. However, Jesus is very clear and you do not need to be a scholar or theologian to make sense of what he is saying.

In addition to the hunger for spiritual truth and identity society today has, it also greatly values and desires relationship, experience and testimony. Unfortunately, whilst the church has been sitting on pews and focusing on inward focused arguments and issues, the New Age spiritual movements such as Spiritualism have started to fill this spiritual vacuum by getting alongside people, providing genuine experience of the supernatural (albeit in an ungodly way) thus resulting in testimony.

As Christians and indeed the Church, we need to really (and hastily) get over any fears of the supernatural and allow the Holy Spirit to move in supernatural ways in us as well as others. A Church which suppresses the work of the Holy Spirit will quickly go spiritually stagnant with only religion and tradition to hold onto thus making it very appear to be unattractive and oppressive to those seeking truth. Whereas a church that embraces the supernatural works of the Holy Spirit will see miracles, growth and people choosing Jesus Christ declaring Him as their Lord and Saviour.

So how can Christians be effective evangelists in today’s society?

Well, for starters, when reaching out and taking the Gospel to society, the Holy Spirit is of utmost importance, because evangelism, if done in one’s own strength and not God’s is flawed from the word go… much like anything else done in our own strength or understanding. So it also goes without saying that effective evangelism is also lead, guided and ultimately underpinned by the work of the Holy Spirit. It is the Holy Spirit who anoints words spoken or actions taken… it is the Holy Spirit who enables and equips us to be effective “fishers of men”.

Secondly, the Church must be outward looking when it comes to evangelism being able to demonstrate the love of Jesus Christ by being humble through serving and being relational, non-judgmental, and non-condemning. Evangelism is not just about preaching…

Undertaking Godly action in evangelism and thus “being the gospel” Inevitably results in the question from those you reach out to not being able fathom why someone would do this for them when the rest of society hardly cares. As a Street Pastor I am not out there to preach the gospel, but to be the gospel. The words of 1 Peter 3:15 sum this up nicely: “In your hearts set apart Christ as Lord. Always be prepared to give answers to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. But do this with gentleness and respect.”

No Preaching sign for sale on Amazon.

Street or door step preaching will in today’s society very often be regarded as aggressive, invasive and unwelcome to many people and would largely result in a perception of the Church being no better than Mormonism and Jehovah’s Witnesses. However, giving an answer to a question asked of you because of your actions is totally different… the biggest problem with preaching in today’s society is the scepticism and the fact that many want to see Christians actually demonstrating what they preach… remember, people want experience, not just "wishy washy words" that sound good.

Street Pastors in Great Yarmouth

The Street Pastors initiative relies on this approach of bringing the truth and life of Jesus Christ to the streets. Street Pastors do not preach, but will very often engage in deep and meaningful conversations about Jesus with others because they were asked “why?” People in society today are genuinely very surprised see the church “outside of the building” but are even more surprised and blessed when they witness Christians demonstrating love and humbleness through serving others and the community without having to preach or “bible bash”.

So, ultimately effective evangelism today employs the tactic of actions speak much louder than words, we do not necessarily have to preach the gospel (and indeed should refrain if this would offend) on the streets to lead someone to the Lord.

Very often today, preaching will drive people further from the Church and like it or not, we are all evangelists in some sorts through our daily actions…therefore it is important that the Holy Spirit is part of our daily lives as Christians. The more we relate with the Holy Spirit, the more like Christ we become... we will love what he loves and be able to bless others for the glory of God, blessing which will also bring pleasure to God.

So, is the challenge of how to be effective in evangelism within today’s society meaning that we should aim to be the Gospel through our actions by engaging with people in society on their terms rather than ours or the Church’s?

Koran Burning "On Hold"

2010-09-10T11:50:00.002+01:00

So perhaps this is good news indeed, that Pastor Terry has come to his sense... although placing something on hold is not the same as calling off or cancelling...

Well, it's not going ahead tomorrow though, but unfortunately the damage has already been done... having spoken to a couple of Muslims friends yesterday, we found a common ground in solidarity in denouncing this act... as a Christian I fail to see how this fellowship in America represents Christian values through acts such as this... my Muslim friends stated that the extreme Islam groups such as Al Qaeda and the Taliban are in no ways representing Islam... they also said and I quote "our teaching is to be respectful of other people and their beliefs...". We spoke about our faiths very openly and in respect of each others and ended praying for them and once again decreeing that the majority of Christians stand in solidarity with them.

Unfortunately, acts such as this can offend as well as just upset... there are many pictures of showing protests around the world including burning of American flags. Its certainly got the politicians in a bit of a string... and the honest I can understand why especially as relations between the west and Islam are precariously fragile enough... yes, yes, I know it takes two to tango and extreme Islam is no better... I'm sure the majority of Islam would agree with this... but I find myself in total agreement with Barrack Obama when he says "it would be a recruitment bonanza for Al-Qaeda".

Just the thought of this act has caused a world wide upset... irrelevant of whether it goes ahead or not. Its a typical case of "think before do"...

Lets hope this act gets "cancelled" and not left "on hold".

New Web Address for Blog

2010-09-09T17:05:00.007+01:00

New Web URL: http://www.sjjones.me.uk

Yes, the remnants of the Goose are slowly being removed, ok, I suppose it would cause to many problems to change my twitter user name and YouTube channel... but If you follow this blog, please update any links or bookmarks you have. The web address has changed to:

http://www.sjjones.me.uk

The old web address will still function, but will now automatically re-direct to the new one mentioned above, although I have no idea for how long though!

All part of the demise of the Extravagant Goose...

International Burn a Koran Day

2010-09-08T17:05:00.004+01:00

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/world-us-canada-11223457

So once again an extremist American Church Fellowship appears to have completely lost its marbles and gone bananas! Well, the intention to mark the anniversary of the World Trade Center attacks with a corporate burning of copies of the Koran, (Islam's Holy Book) is not exactly the wisest of ideas...

Its almost as if The Dove World Outreach Center have joined the ranks of the Phelps and Westboro Baptist Church with the only difference being this is an attack against Muslims rather than Homosexuals. Although having said that, this whole burning of the Koran is nothing new... in fact, Westboro Baptist Church beat this small Florida fellowship to it two years ago... no surprise there... but then again everyone is going to Hell according to Westboro...

You know what, it makes me so angry to see these kinds of fellowships call themselves Christian and then attempt to back up their extreme acts and condemnation with scripture. Then of course there is a commercialism through selling of merchandise related to these sick acts... yet again another hypocrisy.

What about the Muslims though? Well my prayers are with them as they are publicly judged and condemned by these so called "Christians". However, I also fear that these acts will lead to retribution attacks by Islamic Extremists... its the perfect excuse that fundamental extremist figures need to brainwash more into their ranks. Not to mention this obviously presents another risk to troops currently serving in Afghanistan, not to mention the public back home.

So, irrelevant of who got their first or not, the protest is about the building of a Mosque on the site of ground zero in New York. Whilst we are all entitled to our views on this matter, to go out and condemn Muslims and burn the Koran publicly just is not the answer! I think this fellowship needs to get its act together fast and re-read the Gospels and then sit and ask themselves "What would Jesus do?"... as I'm quite sure Jesus wouldn't go as far as to judge others and burn books. In fact I believe that God is probably more upset with these kinds of extremist action which totally go against what love is...

What is also amazing is that The Dove World Outreach Center preaches on how God loves everyone and yet they seem to be doing a fantastic job of demonstrating this love... if they feel that the love of God is judgement, condemnation, hell, fire and brimstone then I'm afraid they have got it very very wrong indeed... because God's love is unconditional no matter on the individual...

If any Muslims or other non-Christians read this post or indeed the news articles please, please do not accept this despicable act to represent the majority of Christianity... and are just as appalled and sickened by this loveless act as you are...

Lets face it... extremist bigots are present in every faith and religion... unfortunately, some just go too far.

However, just we should always remember that the actions of the minority do not account for the actions of the majority. Just because some Muslim extremists blow themselves up in the name of Allah does not make all Muslims the same... and just because some Christian extremists decide to burn the Koran does not make all Christians the same... fundamentally speaking though (and I strongly believe this applies to everyone irrelevant of faith), no one is perfect...

If I could ask one question to Pastor Terry Jones of The Dove World Outreach Center, it would have to be "do you not think that condemnation and burning the Koran is of the devil?"....

Pastor Terry, thank you for your condemnation of Europe, but I pray for your deliverance....

Officially a poor skanky student... :)

2010-09-08T15:35:00.008+01:00

Well that's the line joked to me by some of closer friends :)

Have just now finished online registration with the University of East Anglia, uploaded a mug shot for the campus card and have sorted out a copy of Microsoft Office Professional Academic 2010.

Getting very excited now it is only three weeks away until my University life as a mature student begins at the University of East Anglia.

Often feels like I'm on a roller coaster... going up the lift hill awaiting the ride to truly begin...

What Makes a Good Church Sermon?

2010-09-05T17:26:00.011+01:00

Sermons are very often related to Church by both Christians and Non-Christians alike. Sermons can often have characteristics such as being provocative, offensive, condemning, fire and brimstone, long, short, boring, wishy washy.... but does this mean they are bad? Since becoming a Christian I have always pondered on my opinion of what makes a good sermon?

Today at St. Andrews Church, the sermon was delivered by Revd George Kovoor, the Principal of Trinity College Bristol. St. Andrews is currently focusing on the whole reordering of the church for which they have been given the green light to proceed. However, there is a huge financial cost associated with this project and is subject to controversy with some folks both within the St. Andrews fellowship and outside.

Ok, but what has the reordering of St. Andrews have to do with the subject of this post? Well... what George spoke about was reordering... however, his message was strongly aimed at the reordering of those who make up the church... in other words, the people.

Yes he mentioned the need to faithfully, joyfully and sacrificially give, but he didn't not attribute this to just financial substance or the St. Andrews Reordering alone, instead the challenge was to treat our entire lives as an act of worship for God rather than just come for a sing song and social on a Sunday and place anything from 20p to £20 in the offering dish out of compulsiveness and false humility.

Now I would say the sermon delivered by George today had a fantastic mixture of characteristics, I personally felt that the sermon today was:

•    Exposing Problems within the Church
•    Grounded in Scripture
•    Provocative and Challenging the Status Quo
•    Encouraging Assertive Action and Responsibility
•    Funny

In my opinion any good sermon must address or expose a particular issue whilst at the same time relating this to what it said in the scripture.

In order to be effective, I believe that sermons should be provocative... the moment a sermon upsets people by pushing them out of their comfort zones then it is effective... it forces them to take action on the point mentioned. If a sermon highlights an issue but does not provoke then its simply wishy washy and ineffective.

If a sermon is provocative (which I would hope it would be) then it should hopefully encourage a listener to take action rather than say "oh that was very good" and then do nothing else. By encouraging assertive action (to be assertive is to be confident) a sermon is very empowering for listeners. I also think it has the added bonus of encouraging listeners to take responsibility for their actions and empower them to reflect.

The icing on the cake for many with a sermon is if it is delivered in a lighthearted and humorous manner. However, the point of a sermon is not to have a laugh and a joke... the point is the subject it is about. Whilst I am not attempting to be a kill-joy here, sermon time is not the Church's comedy club and if anyone only listens to get a laugh... then they are listening for all the wrong reasons and thus will most likely take nothing away from it...

Fundamentally I feel that the purpose of a sermon is to teach, equip and encourage people to develop their relationship with God and draw closer to him in their daily lives and rely on him by Faith.

At the end of the day, I ultimately feel that a good sermon should address a subject/issue whilst at the same time provoking the audience by upsetting non-Godly status quos. It should always encourage assertive action and responsibility whilst ultimately being grounded in the scripture.

A good sermon should result in listeners taking responsibility for committed Godly action in their lives.

As for "bad" sermons, again, this is my opinion only, but I personally switch off to the sermon if:

•    it is full of condemnation
•    it is all hell, fire and brimstone
•    it is judgemental, sexist or homophobic
•    it is religious
•    it is hypocritical and insincere
•    the speaker is making it all about them / glory seeking (self-centered)

I think the reasons are quite obvious!

So back to the reordering point... reordering a building and reordering the Church are two very different things... Reordering a building does not change the people... Reordering the church surely means that every Christian is responsible for constantly reordering their lives so that Jesus is at the very centre of all they do?

I'm sure that if all sermons were like the one delivered by the Revd. George Kovoor today, and with people taking action, then I think the church would look a whole lot different....

Norfolk Street Pastor Training

2010-09-04T17:35:00.003+01:00

Well, its training time again for Norfolk Street Pastors. Read More...

Really hoping for more people to come forward and join the Great Yarmouth team.

Church Hopping - is it possible?

2010-08-16T16:23:00.004+01:00

Within the last month some gossip was spread about me questioning my stability in Church membership... who spread these false rumours and why does not concern me... However, it has provoked some deep thought over what it means to be "rooted" at a Church fellowship and the differences between that and "Church Hopping".

Firstly, I want to share my views on what I define as being "Church"... many people today (in particular, those who do not share in the Christian faith) believe that the Church is a building where Christians meet and do Christian stuff such as worship, pray and eat bread and drink wine. Unfortunately, there are also those who say they are Christian, yet share the very same view.

It seems that today, the word Church is used by many people to refer to a building comes from the Greek word "Kuriokos" which means "House of a Lord". Whilst in itself, is largely correct when using the word Church in a descriptive form in reference to the building in which Christians meet. Indeed this also concurs with some Christians who will use the phrase "House of God" to refer to the building.

However, like it or not, it goes far deeper, in English translastions of the bible, the word Church is used often... even in the Gospels, Jesus mentions the word Church.

A question that would raise itself here is whether Jesus is referring to a building? The simple answer to this question is actually no... The use of the word Church actually comes from the Greek word "Ekklesia" which is an assembly of people. So in a simple sense, the Church is the people... not the building...

A foundational belief in Christianity is that there is only one church... this literally means one people. However, within the Church (and denominations are still part of the one church) there are multiple fellowships; this is where the word Church is very often used as a reference.

So, with this in mind, is it possible for someone to "Church Hop"? A "Church Hopper" is a term often used to describe someone who is not rooted within a particular fellowship, has no spiritual accountability or is someone who frequently moves around fellowships. Firstly, I firmly believe that to call someone a "Church Hopper" is actually making a judgement against them and the word very clearly states that we must not be judgemental.

This mainstay of the gossip regarding my circumstances was that I had been part of four fellowships in the past few years. I have learned some hard lessons that's for sure as I initially left St. Andrews half a year after returning from York out of being rebellious and selfish. However, I felt called to go back and I repented of being rebellious. Unfortunately, leaving the fellowship I had joined was not easy and the departure was hard. I continue to hope to be reconciled with the leader.

I was a member of The Ark in York whilst away with YWAM for best part of a year in 2007. Whilst I was a rooted member of this fellowship - I was at the time also still firmly rooted with St. Andrews back home. The Ark is a fellowship I still feel very close to, even now despite not being in York (obviously, I do visit York occasionally and attend services at The Ark).

The other fellowships I have been said to have been a member at were based on the assumption of attending a single or multiple service(s) they run... I know some people have very narrow views on this, but attending a service at another fellowship in my mind does not make you a "rooted" member of that fellowship.

In fact, I attend other fellowships on regular occasions out of support as well as those fellowships often hold services which they invite Christians from all over to attend... particular examples here are every month on the third Sunday evening I will attend Stoke Holy Cross' evening celebration service along with others from the fellowship I am rooted at. Does this make me a member of Stoke Holy Cross? The last time I checked, it doesn't.

Another example, my fiancée works for the Norwich Family Life Church's pre-school. Within this role she has made some excellent friends amongst the NFLC fellowship. On occasion we will both go and worship with them on a Sunday evening... does this make me... or my Fiancée a member of Norwich Family Life Church? Again, the last time I checked, it doesn't.

I consider myself a member of the Church... rooted within the fellowship of St. Andrews, Gorleston. I will not be offended by being false accused of being a "Church Hopper"... but at the same time, I feel blessed as this has provoked my thinking and reinforced what I already knew of what the Church is.

Now, there are those "Christians" who will refuse to root themselves within any fellowship and often wonder from fellowship to fellowship for whatever reason. Indeed, many of them hold the same views that the Church is the people...

Now, with what I earlier in this post, it raises the question of whether "church hopping" is possible?

In theory, Church Hopping is actually impossible as there is only one church... however, I do feel there is reason to be greatly concerned with not being rooted at a fellowship.

The main reason being authority, it is very important to come under and submit to the authority of a leader. Submitting to this authority enables you to receive teaching, ministry as well as be accountable to others. It is also a necessity for undertaking any form of outreach.

As a co-ordinator of a local night time outreach project, I have turned down applicants who were not rooted at a fellowship. I'm in no ways being judgemental of the person in question, but the reason is simply that they have not submitted to the authority of a leader let alone the accountability with leaders and others within a fellowship in a spiritual sense.

I believe this is important because to be effective in any form of ministry, you have to be accountable and also be backed by the church. The question is can someone be effective in ministry without being firmly rooted to a fellowship and under the spiritual authority of a leader?

I'm not saying it is wrong to move from one fellowship to the other, in fact it is commonplace that Christians feel called to be somewhere else... but that's another topic.

The one thing I will say is that the phrase "no such thing as a perfect church" is absolutely true... whatever fellowship you belong to, there will be issues, as Christians we just have to work through these issues as best we can.

I do feel strongly that one thing is for sure and that is no matter what fellowship we are in, we have a duty to be outward looking and welcoming to others by promoting a vibe of "belonging"... at the end of the day, we are one people of one church no matter what our theological views and/or denominational differences may be...

The Goose Has Moved On...

2010-08-15T18:37:00.001+01:00

Well, after considerable thought, I have decided to drop the whole "Extravagant Goose" thing... whilst this was a nicknamed created by a friend at college back in 2001/2002 it certainly had some uses... but I've decided that I no longer want to hide behind a nickname formed in the past.

So, I have played with the blog (again) and as you can see it has the "very original" title of "Steve's Blog" :)

RIP Extravagant Goose... you served me well for many years!

Goose is going to University!

2010-07-29T12:32:00.000+01:00

Where: Home

Well, yesterday was a great day considering all the recent rubbish that has happened. The University of East Anglia (UEA) sent me a letter confirming that they have made me an unconditional offer to undertake a BSc(Hons) Business Information Systems degree starting this September!

Must admit, the more I think about this and reflect, the more excited I become... amazing really... not long ago, I feared University...

Robbed

2010-07-27T12:24:00.002+01:00

Where: Home

Well a rude awakening this morning as the relative I live with informed me that her car was broken into during the night... the thieves made off with a Pioneer P700BT Car Stereo and a TomTom Go 500 Satellite Navigation device. Ok, the Sat Nav is eons old, but the Pioneer stereo is quite valuable. If you see or even perhaps offered a Pioneer stereo of the model mentioned earlier with the serial number: PI HBTM000979EW please tell the Police about this as it is stolen property. I know it will likely draw a blank, but hey, got to try right?

In addition to this, the thieves obviously were on a late night shopping trip as they decided to burgle 6 garages on my road as well as at least another 3 or 4 behind Tesco Express just up the road.

Astonishing really... has shaken the community a little that's for sure... hoping to organise a prayer walk to pray for the area and to decree the word of God.

Materialism

2010-07-20T21:45:00.000+01:00

Where: Home

Have recently come against a lot of materialism not just in myself, but also others around me. A difficult beastie at times, especially when work is very few and far between mainly due to economic circumstances and such. However, what I do realise is that you can have extremely little in terms of material items and finance yet have a great life.

I'm troubled by those who think money is life... and this week I have had someone say to me "Money is Life..." deal with it... how very very sad. I challenged this remark with "where is life when money dominates it?"...

Unfortunately, we live in a world that is held hostage by money and/or the desire to accumulate as much of it as possible. Money certainly can buy security.... but can it really buy true happiness? The answer is of course it can't buy happiness. I know plenty of people with money who admit they're not happy with life, always in pursuit of happiness by purchasing the latest gadgets and gizmos, yet these too don't bring happiness.

What is missing in people's lives is the true love and joy that comes from God... happiness, joy and true love cannot be bought or sold... but its there for the taking... for a simple cost of giving ones life to Jesus, to turn away from what has been and become what he intended you to be...

Even though my finances suck at the moment, I know God will not abandon me, I know he provides my needs.

I wish more people would consider Him... rather than look to materialistic things of the world to buy a false happiness. God is real...

A Change In Direction?

2010-07-10T21:34:00.004+01:00

Where: Home

Again, typical of me to neglect updating this blog...

It has certainly been an interesting several weeks that's for sure...

Lets start with my major rage on Saturday night. A Rage directed at God, blaming him for much of my issues in life. A Rage declaring that I want revenge on those who have hurt me, abused my trust or betrayed me... I even kicked a few things around and fisted the floor... but it was all coming out, a spiritual vomiting of sorts.

Once that was done, I felt drawn into repentance and confessed what wrongs I had done. I was reminded of June 2007 in York when I had a similar experience where I became a new person... I was that person again, I felt free, I began to be positive. I felt again very comfortable in my identity as a Son of God, that I have had a loving father all along.

Well, ok that's the short short version, but it doesn't end there... life is a journey at the end of the day... a roller coaster full of ups and downs... and sometimes things just go upside down... but we recover from them. He has set the path ahead, the track the life roller coaster runs has been decided by Him because He knows best, He knows our needs at all stages in life... He grows us and develops us from these lows in life so that we may rise up on the highs and soar like Eagles.

Recently, I have been feeling increasingly challenged to lay down my career as an IT Trainer and to undertake University study. I also feel a calling to become a teacher of ICT. This would not have been the first time this has come up though, it has come up twice in the past couple of years, yet back then I always found an excuse out of fear to not investigate.

So, again in the last several months it came up again! This time I decided to pray and investigate. After quite a significant time spent in prayer and by talking to various people I feel close to and trust, I believe this to be a calling of God to undertake this study and to apply. Yet whilst my BTEC result isn't as high as I'd like it to be with University in mind, I feel that I do have considerable work experience to compensate. (not to mention the academic snobbery around BTEC anyway!).

So, I looked closely at possible choices in both academic institution and subject. I don't want to go away to study, I have looked at the following:

University of East Anglia - BSc(hons) Business Information Systems
City College Norwich (Accredited by UEA) - FdSc Business Computing + BSc(hons) top up
Open University - BSc(hons) Computing with Psychological Studies

I must admit, that the Business Information Systems degree is far more appealing and fascinating than the others... although the Open University's Computing with Psychological Studies is exciting as well... although it most probably won't be as valuable as the degree in Business Information Systems.

Well, I chatted for a while to the UEA and they checked my experience and academic qualification and invited me to make a direct application... which I have now sent off. I have no idea when I will hear, but Kevin suspects it will be within the next couple of weeks.

We shall see what happens... the thought of studying this degree is exciting enough, having embracing the teaching calling, the excitement is even greater... but it will take hard work to get there... yet this time I am not afraid. I believe God will provide my needs and the finances I need. In Jesus name I believe this.

So the Tory / Lib Dem Coalition Begins...

2010-05-12T10:00:00.005+01:00

Where: Stafford

Firstly, I must admit I feel its a very exciting time for British politics as we've not had a hung parliament for many years and indeed the sheer fact that the Conservatives have entered into a coalition government with the Liberal Democrats.

Well, the cabinet has been formed - if you are not sure who is in the cabinet and in what position... then this BBC article will hopefully be helpful for you.

I personally think its very good how David Cameron has got Nick Clegg as his deputy... this I believe is a major sign of co-operation from both the parties and I believe would go down well with many supporters.

Although I still feel George Osbourne is a liability as chancellor and would have rather seen Ken Clark or Vince Cable in that role.... although his role is not quite confirmed yet... I do feel that Vince Cable's would be very well placed with business and banking... certainly a strong player and I hope he will have some kind of involvement with Osbourne.

I'm still very much undecided and unconvinced about Liam Fox as Defense Secretary and Andrew Lansley as Health Secretary - especially as the last I heard was latter of the two men holds a second job as a company director...

Indeed... it is going to be a very interesting next few months or years... we shall see...

Fallout, Wilderness Reflection and Repentance

2010-05-11T11:23:00.005+01:00

Where: Shrewsbury

Have to admit that last weekend was by far not the most pleasant... for reasons I won't go into publicly, I have left Cliff Park Community Church and set to go back (at least for the time being) to St Andrews. The reason I say "for the time being" is because I'm thinking mainly of Claire, at the end of the day, we've both got to be at a place where we both feel comfortable, where we both feel we belong and where we both feel is a good grounding for our ministries and callings. - oh, did I mention the word both?... I think I did...

On this note, over the past couple of days I have been in a state of huge reflection over some things I have said and what was said to me... Also, I find it hugely unsettling that I seem to have not been wholly settled in a church since returning from York. That being said, is not a criticism in any way... perhaps just the recent things have been a challenge or test.

Trouble is, I sometimes worry about what I do and say... although a wise word I heard on Sunday was:

"Worry only asks questions and doesn't give answers; where as Faith never asks questions, it only gives answers"

So, I remain faithful to God and believe that perhaps this is just a bit of wilderness time that is challenging me to draw strength straight from the Lord... Obviously it goes without saying that I must take a break from Street Pastors for at least this month... (or until I am in a better place to support it) Overall, I hope it to be a time of spiritual quietness as well as serious reflection and repentance if necessary.

...and its a Hung Parliament with Balls

2010-05-07T18:31:00.008+01:00

Where:Home

Well after coming home and staying up all night with Kevin to watch the General Election result roll in it is indeed what the polls suggested... a hung parliament... although when you consider that Ed Balls was re-elected it seems to have spawned a whole series of twitter posts clearly designed to bash Ed Balls by saying "its a hung parliament with Balls"... I'm guessing Ed Balls wasn't liked that much then... *cough* ahem... well.

I very much enjoyed watching results come in, for me it was one of the most exciting elections since the 1997 Labour landslide which Tony Blair won, hard to believe that was 13 years ago now though doesn't it.

So, what of a hung parliament? Well, clearly the Tories made some major gains in the election including Great Yarmouth (my constituency). However, it wasn't enough for a majority and Cameron isn't going straight into Number 10.

I personally feel that Labour did far better than many predicted... Cameron's attempt to swing Labour heartland seats failed with Labour in many cases holding a decent majority.

The election itself was just the beginning, now comes the task of a government being formed... and the Liberal Democrats have become probably the most powerful party in Parliament... both the Tories and Labour need the Lid Dems to agree to form a coalition government in order to form a government.

The way I see this is for the Lib Dems to form a coalition with the Tories - then the Tories need to:

Commit to offering a referendum / adopting proportional representation (electoral reform)
Lib Dems to be offered Cabinet positions by the Tories with the possibiltiy of Vince Cable being made Chancellor

Currently, the Tories have only said they will investigate the PR/Electoral Reform - this is a huge issue to Lib Dems and they are likely to be non-negotiable over this.

For Labour:

Gordon Brown must step down as PM
Lib Dems being offered cabinet positions

Labour have already offered to hold a referedum on PR/Electoral Reform which is a big tick in the box for the Lib Dems... but Nick Clegg has repeatedly stated that Brown must go. I would not be surprised if Labour MPs did rebel in the coming week....

The question is... will the Lib Dems agree with one of the parties or neither?

Despite the Tories have a lead in terms of seats... they are I feel too weak to form a minority government on their own and we will just end back up back at the polls very soon.

So, for many MPs - especially those who won with extremely thin majorities, it must still be very unsettling knowing their seat could well end being up for grabs again in the coming months if parliament stalls....

How did I vote? well... I've never liked the Tories and never really will... so for me there was only one choice... however, as a Christian I also believe that one must support the authority given (well at least let them have a chance) - so I will stand with them but certainly would want to hold them to account. I'm still furious and mad about the Tories allying themselves to a group of Nazi Sympathizers, neo-fascists, anti-semitists and homophobes in Europe... I think this lot make the BNP look like puppies...

However, the thought of the Liberal Democrats being at the heart of it all does excite me... I sincerely hope Vince Cable can become chancellor....

Either way... the next couple of weeks are proboably going to be extremely interesting!

Blog Unlocked

2010-04-28T12:57:00.004+01:00

Where: Shrewsbury

Well, have no removed the restrictions for the blog as much of the stuff I wanted to keep a secret is now no longer a secret.

Have also decided to really look into WordPress... (not to mention that I can grab a nice free App on my HTC Desire which will post directly to a WordPress blog.)

Toying...

2010-04-23T11:49:00.004+01:00

Where: Shrewsbury

Well, I've actually got quite a lot on my mind that I want to blog... but I'm seriously thinking of the privacy restrictions on this blog today... a lot of the stuff I wanted to keep secret at one time is now almost common knowledge... so I'm wondrous to whether or not relax the guard a bit...

However, with that, and reading other blogs, most notable Mark Tiddy's, I'm inspired to perhaps look into a new blogging platform... but I've no idea... I mean, I like blogger I suppose, just guess I'd have a little more freedom when it comes to something like Word Press and I could kind of include my public LinkedIn profile page as well...

Oh well, the thoughts go on, its almost time for lunch and I'll have a whole 3 - 4 hours in the car to think about it later as I drive home to Norfolk :)

God is Good and Latest Goings On

2010-04-07T09:28:00.002+01:00

Where: Stafford
Listening: tap tap on the keyboard and a printer that sounds like a jet engine!
Feeling: Chilled out and rejoicing

Well it certainly has been a while since I last updated this blog, ok ok, I have been reminded for a while by certain people that I need to add a new entry! (not mentioning any names *AHEM* Mark Tiddy *AHEM*)

Anyways, what a journey life has been since November last year... at one point I felt close to rock bottom again... I felt I was going to loose it all... but out of the blue a job comes up at Stafford... I can only describe this as a God moment. Our good Lord has a habit of perfectly timing things so that he gets the most glory from a given situation. Either way I am very blessed to still be working for South Staffordshire and Shropshire Healthcare NHS Foundation Trust. I've no idea when the contract will end, but certainly not before May!

So, what has this contract done for me? Well, firstly, and I seriously thank and praise God for the provision... as I have been able to completely wipe clean my credit card which had to be used a lot at the end of last year... at one point I had almost £8,000 - £9,000 loaded on it. Through the provision of God, I have been able to regain control of it and clear the debt. However, I will still to this day advocate sensible use of Credit Cards... as I found out... you never know when they WILL come in handy...

God has been so good... fuel prices are another woe... yet everywhere I travel I seem to find out of the blue unexpectedly lower prices on fuel than anywhere else, now I'm not talking a 1p difference sometimes this difference can be 3 - 5p!!! Bless God again for this provision. But I do also pray that he would multiply the fuel within the tank of my car.

So what of the future... well, I'm actually looking forward to the General Election come May 6th... I feel it is going to be very interesting to see what will happen. I have a hunch we are heading for a hung parliament mainly because the Tories have got their work cut out, the swing they need is huge, and I doubt disillusioned Labour voters would vote Tory...

Of course, I've no idea what awaits me work wise after this contract... there are some big things in the pipeline though... but a big part of me is hoping for more local work if possible.

I've also rejoined Bannatynes after several months out whilst paying off the credit card... so, looking forward to getting back to the swimming and following an exercise program to get in shape for next year! I pray and ask God for his help and strength in doing so.

Priesthood Calling Confirmed?

2010-01-26T22:25:00.004Z

Where: Colton, Staffordshire
Listening: Vicky Beeching - Yesterday, Today & Forever
Feeling: Relaxed and Close to God

Some events last week that's for sure! Firstly, I suddenly came down with a nasty sinus infection which spread to my throat... thankfully the Lord answered my pleas for help along with some antibiotics and other medicines given by the doctor.

However, it was at Church on Sunday when a something happened. I went along to St. Andrews and was honoured to witness Sam Goffe be baptised by immersion. Something which reminds me of the time in Mombasa, Kenya, when Sam spoke to me with regards to being baptised.

I also felt the need to pray with Jan, Rita and Dan. It was during this time of prayer that Jan read a scripture the Lord had given her. It was Malachi 2. As we prayed it soon became apparently clear that this was yet another confirmation of my calling by God. Finally, scripture has played a part in the confirming of this call I have felt for years. All in God's perfect timing though.

I have been praying with Dan for a while regarding this, and he certainly also agrees. I am without doubt now that God is definitely calling me into the Priesthood. Its something I've become very excited about over the past several months as I've prayed and sought God for confirmation of this.

However, Jan also pointed out that like many callings, I will not be alone. She mentioned Claire and our plans to get married next year. Jan says that Claire is to be a pillar of support for me in undertaking this calling. I am in agreement with Jan as I have spoken to Claire about this before, and I know Claire is fully supportive of me. I can't thank God enough for Claire.

Certainly something to keep praying on, but I know its time to speak with Tony Ward about this as it was him I spoke to back in 2006.

I pray for God's strength not only in the undertakings of His callings on my life, but also of my current engagements - I hope and pray for strength to make it through work this week after being horribly ill.

All for God's Glory...

Marriage Preparations Underway

2010-01-14T08:58:00.005Z

Where: Shelton Hospital, Shrewsbury
Listening: Waldo's People - Loose Control
Feeling: Upbeat, Organised, Prepared, Relaxed

Well its official, me and Claire will be getting married on Saturday 25th June 2011 at St. Andrews Church, Gorleston. Can't wait for that day to come... but of course, the task of getting everything organised is huge...
But at least we have wasted no time in looking into options. The evening venue is likely to cause the most headaches as we don't believe we should spend a lot of money either. Hopefully the Lord will make clear to us a suitable venue.

Also began to draft an initial guest list, obviously this will be revisited as time goes on. In some ways its exciting doing the planning, but only makes me want the day to come around quicker.
Hopefully though, we've been wise waiting until next year...

Well, first learners will arrive soon, best be ready for them (despite being prepared since 8am!) :)

Reflections on 2009

2009-12-31T23:59:00.007Z

Where: Work (retrospective blog posting)
Listening: Melena Ernman - La Voix
Feeling: Reflective, Light

Well firstly, apologies for the delay in posting the usual new years blog post... its now 13th January 2010... but still - better late than never right?

Well ummm now that's done with, 2009 was in fact quite a tough year... I've already nick named it the year of the grinder due to various things that went on throughout. However, all ends well.

So lets start out with the bad things first...
Financially, 2009 was tough, SJJ IT Training ltd became insolvent and has ceased trading. It is now in the process of being wound up. Unfortunately, the case against Ideal Training was also lost - despite the overwhelming evidence against Ideal, the Judge showed a lot of a favour to their solicitor advocate and ruled in their favour. Many suspect corruption I've little doubt they were both Freemasons... trouble is, it cannot be proven. Never mind... the damage was done to Ideal anyway... the reputation with both the NHS and other Freelance Trainers took a hit.

So with that, it was back to contacting for now at least....

As for the good stuff, well I popped the question to Claire on New Years Eve (NOT AT THE STROKE OF MIDNIGHT THOUGH!!!!) and she accepted, I just cannot believe how lucky I am to have her in my life. She is the most genuine girl I've been with, shes also so beautiful in so many ways... and I feel the luckiest guy alive to be marrying her in June 2011. I just love being with her and cannot thank God enough for her.
So all in all, 2009 ended well... and well urm... I can't think of a better way to start a new year at this time... I have a feeling 2010 will be significant for me especially as I realise the calling to ministry I believe I have from God.
Happy New Year!

Snow Leaved and Cicrumstantial Reflection

2009-12-18T23:53:00.003Z

Where: Claire's
Listening: Nothing (keyboard tap tap sounds!)
Feeling: Out of the Way

Well the snow certainly hit part of the country today, so much so that I ended up coming home this morning as opposed to this evening, and I am glad that I did. It was also wonderful to be able to see Claire this evening. However, as I type this I'm reminded so much of the damage alcohol can do.

Although I do feel a little hostile towards Claire's house mate Karla, I do realise and pray God helps me with this as I need to forgive her for something a while back. However, tonight I believe she has been out with her partner at a work Christmas do, but she came back very drunk and upset... I do feel some pity for her though, obviously I do not know the full picture, but Claire leaped into action. I felt the best thing for me to do was to take myself away from the situation.

However, I am reminded by this in that alcohol can make things worse and indeed too much alcohol just isn't a good thing. I pray that Karla will be ok, whatever has happened, but I remain thankful to God for pulling me away from the alcohol some years ago.

I guess this is really one of those circumstantial reflection blog postings... I hope one day perhaps, Karla will find Jesus and see that he makes everything better...

Lord, please help me to forgive, you have forgiven me for my wrongs, therefore Lord, it is only fitting and indeed right that I forgive others. Help me Lord, in your strength. For your name sake, Amen.

Realising the Calling

2009-12-09T16:29:00.003Z

Where: Stafford
Listening: Sibelius - Karelia Suite, Op. 11 Intermezzo
Feeling: Tired but Elated

Loving Father God,
Thank you that you are a God of unfailing love and that you alone predestined me for adoption in your dear Son Lord Jesus. Thank you Father that you have mapped my life and have plans to prosper me, to give me hope and a future.Father, I pray about my future and ask for your wisdom in the working out of what I believe you are calling to. Father, I understand that a calling to be Ordained within the church is no light thing and is and rightly should not be a quick process. Father, I feel more and more at peace with this and I commit my life into your hands because you know what is best for me. Father, I seek to know you more in my life but to serve you, others and to bring Glory to you.
I pray these things in the name of Jesus,
Amen

As I reflect on things in my life, I again realise how far God has brought me, but also realise that the journey is by no means anywhere near complete.

Last night when talking to Claire, I was emotional in a good way in reflecting on the work here at South Staffordshire and Shropshire Healthcare NHS Foundation Trust. I really enjoy working for this trust. The training in Shrewsbury is due to start on Monday.

I was also reading the information about Ministry in the Church of England: http://www.cofe.anglican.org/lifeevents/ministry/ministryinthecofe/

Whilst being extremely helpful and incredible food for prayer, it reinforced my realisation of how much of a major and life changing vocation this calling would be. It made me think about various things, but in particular:

Family
Whilst I know on the whole my family would be supportive of me doing things (so long as they aren’t stupid!) I wondered what my parents in particular would really think. My Grandmother I know has and still does encourage me to do it, she still holds onto the claim that she sees me being an Ordained Minister in the Church… this is something she has felt since 2005/2006.My Uncle is typically jokey about things, yet I know he would support me in this.

Claire
I love Claire very much, she is a truly wonderful woman and is a huge source of encouragement for me. I had prayed and asked God for a partner for almost 2 years before meeting her. I know Claire supports me and that means a lot. I also know that I would love to marry her one day too! Ideally, and I believe that I would want to be married before thinking of undertaking this calling. I thank God so much for Claire, and pray that He blesses her richly, and gives her loads of hugs and cuddles when it both is and isn’t physically impossible for me to do so.

Other Friends
My close friends I know support me. However, Kevin, in particular prophesied that I would be in an Ordained Ministry role back in 2005 / 2006. However, he still holds onto this much like my Grandmother does. Rev Dan Waite has also been a huge support for me, I have talked very openly with him on this calling, and we try to pray regularly on the subject. He too believes the calling is right and I receive a lot of encouragement from him.

Commitment
Commitment is something often not fully considered by many people… however, I can see clearly that this calling would be a huge commitment and would to some degree involve some sort of sacrifice – what that will be remains to be seen. However, having a full realisation of the commitment would only benefit. I am not afraid…

I suppose all in all, I will continue to pray and talk about this in order to seek further confirmation, clarity and understanding. However, most importantly, I wish to continue to grow deeper in love and faith to God.

First Week in Staffs Almost Over

2009-11-26T22:29:00.003Z

Where: Colton, Staffordshire
Listening: The Scorpions - Wind of Change
Feeling: Contemplative, yet relaxed and close to God

What a week, it has been absolutely fantastic working for South Staffordshire & Shropshire NHS Foundation Trust again. It has been a busy week mind - I originally thought it would be just myself and Jonathan, but we have been joined by Rachel, a new junior trainer to the trust who was a floorwalker during their previous go live.

Rachel is full of passion for the job and she brings a huge amount of process knowledge as she used to work in Medical Records. Shes fantastic to have around, and its a joy and pleasure for both myself and Jonathan to mentor her. I really hope she has a fulfilling career in training.

So, work has been busy yes, but the training dates have been put back a week - we now start in Shrewsbury on 14th December - which is cool as it gives us an extra week to get through all the prep we have to do.

Well, food wise, I've eaten very well this week, lots of good healthy food such as salads, and less junk :)

On the other side of things though such as futures - I have had some alone time with God here too... I am feeling more and more at peace about the whole ordained ministry thing... the other surprising thing is the friends I have here have all mentioned it! Is God really saying something here or what?! My recent prayer was that I will joyfully commit myself to God's calling.

So, the weekend approaches, and I am really looking forward to seeing Claire and having a meal with her tomorrow evening when I get home. Street Pastors on Saturday night in Gt Yarmouth also. Should be a great weekend. Praise God!

Stafford awaits!

2009-11-20T23:28:00.002Z

Where: Home
Listening: Jack Johnson - Sitting Watching Waiting
Feeling: Excited!

Wow, to be invited back by South Staffordshire and Shropshire Healthcare NHS Foundation Trust for a 3rd time is encouraging! Myself and Jonathan are to begin the training process for the deployment of Graphnet G-Mental Health in Shropshire... what a privilege!

Praise God!

Calling to Ordained Ministry? The Reverend Goose?

2009-11-15T22:53:00.008Z

Where: Home
Listening: Random thoughts of my head
Feeling: Inquisitive

Well, here's one for the books!

So as usual, I attend the Stoke Holy Cross evening celebration service on the 3rd Sunday of the month; and as usual, it is very alive and the Holy Spirit comes and does serious business.

Well, after a spout of infectious spiritual laughter, three prophetic words are read to the congregation. One of these words I knew was for me... it was as follows:

Someone here very uncertain of career, job etc, feeling thrown around by the waves, almost overwhelmed. Jesus is calling you to walk, he will not let you drown, he has a future planned for you!

I saw the the vicar (Rosie) who delivered the word at the end to pray and talk. I told her everything that has happened recently.

Rosie looked me straight in the eye and asked "Are you being called into the Ministry" - she elaborated Ministry as Ordained Ministry within the Church. At once the conviction of the Holy Spirit hit me, and I was taken back to earlier visions of this almost 2 - 3 years ago!!! Blog Post Sunday 13th August 2006: http://extravagoose.blogspot.com/2006/08/power-of-holy-spirit.html

I felt convicted and rebuked by God for sitting on something in fear... fear of inheriting a religious Spirit... Rosie said - this doesn't have to happen... she encouraged me to pray and work this out, but ordained ministry isn't just the usual Church stuff we think... there are various elements of it such as Pioneering Ministry - which I became and still am excited about.

I don't know where this is going, but as I pray - I feel settled with this - I know however, it will have implications on others... notably Claire.

So, I spoke to Claire and told her all... I feel wholly supported by her. Thank you Lord so much for Claire!

I aim to pray on a regular basis with Rev Dan Waite over this.

Lets see what happens....

RIP SJJ IT Training Ltd.

2009-11-04T10:00:00.002Z

Where: SJJ Office
Listening: Phone is ringing...
Feeling: Emotional but not Defeated :o)

SJJ IT Training Ltd has of today ceased trading following a defeat in court against Ideal Training Ltd. Far from Ideal (excuse the pun), the Judge ruled there was no contract between Ideal and Herefordshire PCT. But he also decided that the contract Ideal issued me was not a contract!

This was of course a shocking revelation... I am convinced the trial was dodgy - the way the judge was with the defence solicitor advocate was "warm" and seriously uncomfortable... the whole affair stank of corruption... trouble is, proving it is hard.

Oh well, SJJ IT Training Ltd is now insolvent and cannot legally continue to trade. RIP.

SJJ served its purpose, the Data Protection course has now been handed over to Full Circle Supplies who I will continue to work with.

However, many new opportunities lie ahead and it is of great comfort and encouragement knowing that my favourite agencies still support me and have got me work! :o)

Praise God.

I had a dream

2009-10-15T00:58:00.003+01:00

Where: Home
Listening: nothing
Feeling: Encouraged but tired

Strange dream on 13th October 2009. Must write it up when I remember!!!

Bed time *yawn*

Father God, you did not give me a Spirit of Fear

2009-10-05T16:27:00.004+01:00

Where: SJJ Office
Listening: Radio
Feeling: Spiritually Hungry

Dear God,

It seems yet again this blog has gone without any postings for a while... time that changed again!

I look back at the last month and I see just how terrified I became at various stages... terrified of what you ask, I was terrified of worldly things, of failure, of bankruptcy, of selling training courses and services, terrified of being disowned by family and rejection. Why did I become so fearful? why did I allow this to dominate me instead of your life bringing truth within your word?

I'm sorry I kicked you from the Chairman's seat, it wasn't some childish "look at me, I've got the big seat" thing... in fact, daddy, I have no idea why I booted you from your seat...

But daddy, chairman God, I give you your seat back again, I wish I could jokingly say "I warmed it up for you", but in all seriousness I played on my own strengths... hasn't got me far has it?

Your word says in the 2nd letter to Timothy:

"For God did not give us a spirit of timidity (of cowardice, of craven and cringing and fawning fear), but [He has given us a spirit] of power and of love and of calm and well-balanced mind and discipline and self-control."

I feel challenged by this because of how timid I have been when its come to being faced with making sales calls etc. Yet, I am not timid when training sessions... Daddy, I am weak in marketing and making sales, but I believe you can make me my strongest when I am facing weakness. I ask that you would do that. Raise me up to be strong for you and in the process perhaps combat a few fears here and there.

Father God, I proclaim that you did not give me a Spirit of fear, but you have given me a Spirit of power, of love, of compassion, of calm, self-control and discipline. I refuse to allow Satan and his cronies to take that truth from me, and I know I can boldly proclaim that truth, because my dear daddy, by the atoning blood of Lord Jesus, I have been adopted by you as son.

Daddy, I want my business to be your business, I want to praise you in all I do, I want to life you up in all I do. Daddy, "I press on toward the goal of the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus." I will not be denied by evil and wickedness the promises of my great, glorious and loving God.

Daddy, make me whole again, lets go for a swim later tonight...

Love you daddy God!

So It Begins...

2009-08-03T05:29:00.003+01:00

Where: Nairobi, Kenya
Listening: Don't Stop Moving (Puppet Music Track)
Feeling: Alive!

Well the hard work starts today, the African team will arrive in about an hour or so, so the Rafiki team are now running through whats going on.

I have to get ready to do the ice breaker games and then film the days events for the purposes of a report to which we can send to all who supported us!

Well, going to go join the team now!

Grace

2009-08-02T06:25:00.004+01:00

Where: Nairobi, Kenya
Listening: Godfrey Birtil - Why Should You Be Like A Stranger
Feeling: Somewhat pushed back...

Well here we are in Kenya, ok ok, its been two days since we arrived in Kenya. I have to admit that the temperature etc is much like what it was in the UK, so no real climate to adjust to I suppose except the heat tends to be a dry heat.

The flight was probably one of the quickest 8 hour flights I have taken! But only 2 hours time zone difference so again - no real issues with Jet Lag etc.

I personally feel that the team dynamic is certainly being tested especially with the Adults (myself, Karl, Tracey and Louise). This morning was one such example - I'm up and sitting downstairs about to write this entry and have my own time with God, one of the others comes in to spend time with the Lord, yet she just abruptly complains about my little sniffs here and there because it annoys her - the response was so abrupt I felt quite pushed back by it.

Yesterday there was another example - again because she was tired she felt it necessary to try and "impose" a quiet time on everyone between 3:30 and 4:30 so she could sleep... I'm sorry not only did I find this blatantly selfish I was also thinking, yes quiet times are good - but to be religious about it is not on... and the younger team members found it very hard... I was not amused.

I know that if another instance of this happens I will most likely be challenging the behaviour... its just not on.

My prayer is on this issue and that the team will not fracture because of issues like these. I know God wants grace to be shown... but surely that grace is a two way thing?

Idiot!

2009-07-27T23:32:00.003+01:00

Where: Home
Listening: Nightwish - Ever Dream
Feeling: Relaxed (trying not to be analytical!)

Last night was brilliant. I really do enjoy Claire's company and its just so peaceful being with her as well. Ah, listen to me... I sound like some lovesick puppy lol.

Anyway, I really had a great night with her last night, trouble is, I parked my car in a car park that gets locked every night - and yes, it happened...

My man pride was reduced to nothing, I felt embarrassed and puny. Yet, fortunately Claire was kind enough to run me home - and laughing (I bet she felt very powerful!)... anyway I felt very fortunate to be able to get home... and whats more this morning she came and picked me up and took me to my car which was obviously left nice and secure over night - and that was that. Of course I do tread with caution now, this is a story that will embarrass! However, I do see the funny side of it!

Work was also interesting... Danielle had been attacked Friday and had a nasty mark with swelling the size of a golf ball on her neck... insisted she went to A&E - so ended up taking her to the Paget to get it looked at, fortunately, no major damage, just needs some r & r and anti-inflammatory pills. At least she is ok...

Well, Kenya approaches - 4 more sleeps left... getting a little emotional now, really going to miss Claire. However, still very excited as well!

I feel so lucky to be with her though, she is gorgeous and has such a good heart :)
(just realised I'll read this back one day and probably giggle!)

Final church services before Kenya now done

2009-07-26T12:55:00.003+01:00

Where: Home
Listening: Nightwish - Ever Dream
Feeling: At peace

Well, ventured back to St. Andrews for the first time since April, went to join the rest of Rafiki's Crew in being prayed for with regards to the outreach trip to Kenya in less than a week now!

Following this, I headed to CPCC but unfortunately, St. Andrews went on for longer than expected, but that didn't stop Mike from attempting to embarrass me! Never mind though! Was good to be with Claire again though. Hopefully be hanging out sometime this afternoon / evening also which will be good :)

I want to maximise spending quality time with her before I go... as said in previous posts, I really like her, and I truly feel very lucky to be seeing her. It is going to be tough in Kenya. I'm sure I'll enjoy it to the max and get a lot from it, but I know I'm going to miss Claire.

Well, received lots of prayer for the trip today which was a blessing, I certainly feel at peace about it, although not looking forward to being stuck on a plane for 9 hours or so!

Kenya only 1 week away now!

2009-07-23T17:46:00.005+01:00

Where: SJJ Office
Listening: Nightwish - Ghost Love Score
Feeling: Happy

Well its really dawning on me heavily that this time next week I'll be at Heathrow with the rest of Rafiki's Crew for the outreach trip to Kenya.

I'm growing more and more excited about the trip and the things that I believe God is going to do in us and those we minister to. For me, in many ways its like the unofficial completion of the DTS I did with YWAM York 2 years ago.

One thing for sure is, I know I am going to miss Claire whilst out there, but on the mega plus side - I've got something to really look forward to going home for as well!

Today, Tracey sent me this lovely message:

You had to wait for the next day’s departure. When You got on the boat many people were there. You climbed a net rope ladder and could see the beauty of the island in the distance. When You got there it was marvellous. It had great beauty and a lot of fruit. The Lord is saying, “You previously missed the boat, but you are ready for the right one now. Take My upward steps to see the planned destination. Keep on the lookout for the things ahead I have for you. You will get there.”
John 6:19-21 “Then, when they had rowed about three or four miles, they saw Jesus walking on the sea and drawing near to the boat; and they were frightened. But He said to them, “It is I; do not be afraid.” So they were willing to receive Him into the boat, and immediately the boat was at the land to which they were going.

God loves you very much; but you will not despise your past because you have learnt many things by your suffering and the Lord has always been with you. As your heart is able to receive more love you will begin to feel more and more warmth where there has been emptiness.

A huge encouragement that's for sure. However, the prayer time Karl, Tracey and I had last night for the Kenya trip was simply amazing! So looking forward to it!

Rejection is Dealt a major blow :)

2009-07-22T00:38:00.003+01:00

Where: Home
Listening: Mildred Rainey & Kathryn Scott - Search Me, Know Me
Feeling: "Happiest man alive" lol

Tonight was one of the best nights i have had in a while... went for a meal with Claire at the Three Boars in Spooner Row (village near Wymondham). The food was awesome, I really enjoyed a fillet of Sea Bass with onion mash potato and veggies! Clair had a duck breast with some kind of savoury rice... either way it looked delicious!

Was so good talking and catching up from the days of school to the present... after the meal, we went for a walk in the country side nearby... I confessed to Claire how I felt and with stuttering speech asked her out... and to my amazement and joy, she said yes!!!

Oh boy was I a happy man then! a bit emotional too mind - but apparently I am soft... lol
The rest of the walk was lovely quality time, and we stopped to pray and asked God into this relationship.

God has been so awesome, this strange and unusual courage I had, the fact I even managed to tell Claire what I told her this evening is quite something, but I am very thankful to God for the strength in which to do it!

So, the Extravagant Goose has a girlfriend, and boy is he one happy Goose!
Rejection has been dealt a major blow :)

I am a Son of God...

2009-07-21T09:26:00.003+01:00

Where: SJJ Office
Listening: Nightwish - Ghost Love Score
Feeling: Upbeat, Reflective and in need of Coffee

Well yesterday proved to be an interesting day... aside from a long day at the office, I spoke to Claire as well... ok, well she spoke to me is more like it... and was wanting to sort the date/time for the drink... well, it was then that she asked if I wanted to have a dinner as well... at this point I had to regain some composure... I was not expecting this at all... but ok, it sounded like a great idea... and then I get the response "ok, get something sorted then" - typical, I have to do the dogs work lol

Otherwise, I still feel "stable" - and unable to run away (even if I wanted to)... all of what has happened recently has taken me totally by surprise... the confidence, asking a girl out for a drink and then this...

At the end of the day, I want to play it cool and not rush in as such.

On a major plus, I realised last night that God has brought me such a long way from the person I used to be. For this I rejoice in Him knowing that he only plans to prosper me, not to harm me, to give me a hope and a future. I thank Him and bring Praise to Him, my Abba Father.

In talking with Chris last night, I realised the importance of remembering that God is always wanting to show me that he loves me. I have a terrible habit of complicating things at times and I am a right analytical sod at times... so I know my challenge is to be simple... easier said than done eh?

Abba, give me the child like faith that Jesus talked about...

Whats Happening?!

2009-07-19T23:26:00.003+01:00

Where: Home
Listening: Neon 8 - These Dreams
Feeling: Elated, Rejoicing and Confident (WHAT?!)

Well what an interesting day, and a flipping good one at that!!!

In my last post I mentioned that I like Claire at Church, well I have spoken in confidence regarding these feelings and just how alien they feel to me. I have embraced them but not to the extent that they control me...

What surprises me most is how I still have no run away and hidden behind an excuse such as work! Instead, I talked to her face to face today after Church, enjoyed a good chat also... but I then asked if she wanted to go for a drink - at this point my body was like wanting to run away and run away fast.... yet it couldn't!! and boy was I glad... because she said yes!!!

It shocked me totally, but I am still amazed at how I feel - its like a whole new confidence in an area where I was weak... and used to run away! Now, I'm arranging a date and time for a drink with a girl I really like... lol praise God...

And speaking of God, well despite all of this, I have prayed and will continue to pray to him because He MUST come first... I do not want to allow this situation however good it is to over take God in my life.

Well I can only hope Claire feels something towards me, but at the end of the day - if it comes to nothing I find myself quite comfortable with that thought too... usually I fear rejection - but I feel at the moment that I don't fear it much at all...

Thank you Lord Jesus for this renewal of confidence, I pray that it lasts and can bring to you the glory you so rightly deserve!

Night night!

Ooops

2009-07-13T09:36:00.003+01:00

Where: Office
Listening: Rhythm Gang - The Crowd Song
Feeling: Waking up - out of comfort zone also

Sorry blog for not posting to you for a little bit of time.

Well, Daniel and Danielle have been working here now for about 1 - 2 weeks and already they have had a massive significant and positive impact on the company's vision and progress.

This weekend just gone was somewhat eventful also... had a great time hanging out with Kevin.

Church Sunday was good, the picnic after at Rachel's in Oulton Broad was particularly enjoyable.

However, I also find myself in a bit of a pickle - there is a girl at church who I find attractive... well have done so now for at least a month; her name is Claire. The weird thing is that before I would normally run away from any situation involving liking a girl... but for some reason I simply refuse to run away from this... Yes, I find her very attractive, but she isn't just another one of those "Oh, shes attractive girls" and leave it at that... I now find myself out of my comfort zone and in acceptance that I actually like her... trouble is, I have little idea on what to do now... this feels so alien and scary, yet I refuse to run and hide behind the excuse of work and business... and the questions start - would she feel the same... I definitely want to get to know her more... its just I don't want to be obvious... argh.... lol

Oh well... best get some work done - perhaps I'll speak to Mike about it in confidence this Thursday...

Apprentice IT Trainer Interviews

2009-06-24T18:43:00.003+01:00

Where: Home
Listening: Jack Johnson - Sitting Waiting Wishing
Feeling: Passionate and in deep thought

So, today I began to interview shortlisted candidates for the groundbreaking apprentice IT Trainer position at my company.

As the interviews went on, it fully occurred me to just how groundbreaking and pioneering this apprenticeship actually is. I am so thankful to God for making this happen... all from a dream of giving the opportunity for a young person to get into a career in IT Training.

Ok, so two of the candidates cancelled, but that still left 6... still one to interview tomorrow. The 5 today did very well considering the pressure. However, one of them had very infections passion and was instantly likable by both myself and David from Great Yarmouth College.

It will be very interesting to see how tomorrow turns out... at the end of the day, they should each be given a fair chance. Although I have already identified two candidates who would not be suitable for this role. I shall pray over the decisions tonight.

Back in York

2009-05-31T14:07:00.003+01:00

Where: Ibis Hotel
Listening: N-Trance - Set You Free
Feeling: Relaxed, Excited and generally Fantastic

A 5am start this morning but with good reason. I was York bound for 1 and a half days... and boy was I excited. What was amazing was I originally tried to talk myself out of this trip during the week, but am mighty glad I have come to York again.

Ok, so why have I come to York and why so sudden? Well at the beginning of last week, I had a sense that God was wanting to me come to York. Things have been well, erm, kind of tough at home, I burnt out a few weeks back also. I realise now, God has been inviting me to take a break and rest and I believe he has called me to York to do this, just me and him, HOWEVER, I've still got a very good group of close friends up here especially in the Ark (the church I went to when I was up in York with YWAM two years ago).

The Journey up to York was extremely smooth and I had some quality time with God in the car, which was awesome... I was so excited to be seeing everyone at the Ark again as well as the YWAMers. I arrived earlier than expected, so ended up helping to set up the hall for Ark's service. However, some amazing stuff happened this morning, I didn't know that the Ark had recently been given a complete drum kit, but they lacked sticks... I happened to have a pair of drum sticks with my bongo drums which I don't use... so I gave the Ark these sticks... the next thing, a girl in the congregation picked up the sticks, set the drum kit up and played... amazing! It was also amazing to play the bongos again after so long... Not to mention seeing, speaking to and worshipping God with people I consider to be a close church family.

So, once finished, I helped to pack away and got the times for the prayer on the city walls... basically as part of the global day of prayer, the churches in York are gathering on the city walls this evening to pray out from the city as well as in. I'm mega excited to be a part of this massive prayer movement.

Whilst I await that, I am sat here in the hotel bar, enjoying a nice refreshingly cold beer and a light lunch whilst blogging. Nothing in the world can disrupt my mood at this stage... praise God :)

At the end of the day, York is where God did some major transformation of my life. To me, it is as if York has become a home for me, and I'm now home for a short time...

The Lord is Here

2009-05-28T17:03:00.003+01:00

Where: SJJ Office
Listening: I Am - 365 Names of God
Feeling: Relaxing and Enjoying the Lord's Presence

Ok, I definitely know that God is here... for the past 10 minutes or so I have experienced this unexplained smell in the office. It is a very nice perfume like smell which I am finding very relaxing.

I've experienced this things before where God has given an aroma which was incredibly relaxing.

Something I just wanted to blog about just to capture to moment of a positive experience with the Lord.

Rock in a hard place

2009-05-28T12:34:00.005+01:00

Where: SJJ Office
Listening: Silverblue - Step Back
Feeling: Stable and Thoughtful

So last week, the Lord gave me Psalm 37:8-9 and 39-40.

"Refrain from anger and turn from wrath;
do not fret—it leads only to evil.
For evil men will be cut off,
but those who hope in the LORD will inherit the land."
"The salvation of the righteous comes from the LORD;
he is their stronghold in time of trouble.
The LORD helps them and delivers them;
he delivers them from the wicked and saves them,
because they take refuge in him."

I felt convicted because I had been fretting a bit regarding the legal case between my company and the company which misrepresented a contract costing me over 30 days of work. I quite willingly pray this situation to the Lord, but quite often I think I take it back from him and fret over it.

Now my company got judgement because the other company failed to respond to the court notice. However, they have since applied for judgement to be set aside with the argument of "they never received the court notice"... which is just about as credible as "my dog ate the homework". Either way, again I fretted a bit on this... but now, Lord I once again give it over to you.. help me not to fret.

In terms of where the business is going, well its becoming more apparent the impact the proposed "iSafe" services is having... the bulk of the local press are pushing for updates as they seem to all want to write stories on this and some even want to do full page features. It is certainly encouraging, but does add to the pressure.

The way I describe where I am at with iSafe is like looking at a big mountain and trying to work out the best way of get over it... there is simply too much work for me alone. Therefor after prayer I have decided to take a step of faith and employ people to help with this. However, I believe that the Lord is saying something along the lines of "and its about time too". I have allowed fear to get in the way of these thoughts when they first came to me back in April.

But, that's not the only way, whilst I am here working on iSafe and making these preparations the business is not receiving any income... it is slowly beginning to starve and it sometimes gets very tense when you see the cash getting less and less... I could go and do NHS work, however doing this would most likely jeopardise the whole iSafe project and that would mean wasting two months worth of work I have done towards it... it is simply an awful lot to loose after getting this far....

However, I fully believe that God has called me into this direction, and yes times are tough, but I do believe he has it in hand and his provision will come. God has said to me a few times when I've started to get a little anxious about this, "Have I not provided for you so far?"... and it constantly reminds me of how faithful he is to those who believe and trust in Him. So, Lord, yes I believe in you, and Lord, despite having the difficulties of a fatherless childhood, I desire to trust you 100% and get know you as my Abba Father.

So for the last two days, I have felt like I've been under very heavy attack and had doubts and lies thrown at me from all directions... so many voices n the spirit also, all of them bar one not of God... its a battle to listen to the Lord when the evil one is busy causing disruption. However, I also believe that actually this serves as a confirmation that actually, perhaps I am going the way God wants me to go... God is a risk taker, I believe he is calling me to take a big risk... obviously the devil wants me to not even think of getting out of that boat...

I also felt the need to go to York this weekend, but talked myself out of it during the week on basis of cost. But then my grandmother mentioned it despite I never told her!.... I realised at this point, God is calling me to York this weekend - for what purpose though? I hope it is to retreat just be with him. But then, it would be great to see people again! YWAM has invited me to their lectures on Monday which incidental are about leadership - ironic that I'm also about to employ people right?

Either way, my prayer my dear Lord Jesus is to be close to you at this time, to draw my strength from you and to see a restoration of my confidence, energy, enthusiasm, faith and courage. I pray against the wicked trickery of the evil one in your mighty name Lord Jesus, I pray to know your love is always upon me and that my heart is aligned with yours my dear Saviour. I pray for your provision, discipline and encouragement in what you have called me to do. For all the Glory will be yours Lord, Yesterday, Today and Forever. I love you my dear Lord, and I desire to grow closer to the Father every day. Thank you for your grace, mercy and favour; thank you for the cross.

"Son, you have done well"

2009-05-19T15:18:00.005+01:00

Where: Marriott Hotel, Huntingdon
Listening: I Am - 365 Names of God
Feeling: Upbeat and Encouraged

The Lord placed Psalm 37 on my heart this morning at around 10:20. As I read the scripture, verse 9 jumped out and struck a chord within my heart. Yet, what is God saying to me through this scripture? My prayer is that the Holy Spirit will make clear what the message is.

So... I'm sitting here in my room at the Huntingdon Marriott just before I go to the meeting at 11am. A meeting which could result in SJJ IT Training opening up a new revenue stream in East Anglia. I love the whole setting of this as well... the room has a round coffee table between two high backed and comfortable chairs... I'm in one, and I know that the Lord is sat in the other... just such a great feeling.

With regards to this meeting and the potential, my only prayer is... "Lord, if I am up to this task, then I accept, else, I pray they find the right person".

I feel so relaxed as well... but I know not to become complacent. The Lord has been so good to me, I so desire to to experience the father son relationship I never had when I was young.

As I type this I believe the Lord is saying to me:
"Son, you have done well and I am pleased because you bring me rich offerings of praise which glorify me, I will bless you richly, the ways of the world need not bother you because I am stood with you and have you in my protective grasp. The world will answer to me."

Exciting stuff...

Deliverance - a spiritually surgical procedure...

2009-05-16T19:14:00.005+01:00

Where: SJJ Office
Listening: Marty Sampson - Mighty To Save (Saviour, He can move the mountains)
Feeling: Lonely, but Reflective

So, a week since I lasted wrote on this blog, perhaps I should try harder to write a bit more...

Anyway, the last week has been very interesting, just after writing the last blog I went to Thrigby Windmill and had a wonderful time of fellowship with Pete. I felt very safe and secure spiritually and ended up pouring my heart out to a great extent which I felt was met with love and prayers. This feeling of loneliness I have I very much realise is of the flesh and soul... yet where was my spirit through all of these instances of feeling rejected and lonely?

I believe my Spirit was wounded sometime back, shortly after returning from York. It was as if the church was trying to place me into a mould of which I did not fit... and for some time I became disillusioned and bitter towards to the church. I do forgive the leaders and people I directly blamed and I release them into the fullness of God's grace and love. My spirit battened down the hatches which lead to me doing a lot of things in my own strength as the wills of the flesh and soul took charge... I wasn't until praying with Pete that I felt empowered to rebuke the wills of my flesh and soul and call the spirit from hiding to retake its rightful place. But, we all know too well the father of lies doesn't want this...

This week I've certain faced a small onslaught of lies and doubts... although tough I believe I'm ok... well yesterday was feeling physically rotten and exhausted... but I'm placing this down to being a mild burnout... I have been very busy lately...

It has however been wonderful to feel empowered to pray regularly in the spirit.

So, what happened at Thrigby Windmill? Well it was simply amazing to have a tour of a former grain grinding windmill and to see it spin on its own in the wind - something I never once thought I would be able to do in my lifetime... But, even more so than that, was the spiritual freedom and the powerful encounters with the Holy Spirit. Exile, masquerading itself as a spirit of rejection lost its grip and was promptly exiled to the pit never to return by the authority of Jesus. One thing that I notice is that deliverance gives me that groggy post surgery feeling... had it a little for much of the past week though.

I have also found it somewhat difficult getting to know the Father, I think this is largely due to me not properly knowing what it means to have a father as my biological father left when I was not even a toddler and my step father came into my life when I was a teenager and going through puberty... (yes, there were fireworks!). Ok, so things with my mum and step father are great now, I still lack the experience and (I'm guessing) immense fun and intimacy of childhood with a father being there. I want to know Father God, but to some extent, I feel lost still as to what it all means... and this does trouble me still. I guess I don't feel very close to the Father... and I find myself thinking of the Lyrics of the song Closer, by Titus.

I pray that I can become close to Father God and know what it means to be his son on an intimate level.

As far as work goes, I'm still on the edge of becoming and employer. I still believe this is something God is calling me into even though it scares the heck out of me sometimes and perhaps the burnout I referred to earlier was the result of spending days dealing with health and safety regulations (oh man, just don't ask!!!).

It was good to enjoy fellowship and lunch with the church leader, Mike Simm. We discussed many things including the whole business and employment stuff. He made a point of accountability and that as it currently stands I'm not accountable to anyone other than God. I am beginning to find myself embracing Mike's suggestion of appointing a couple of non-executive directors for the reason of accountability. Complacency can certainly creep on you that's for sure! However, this doesn't solve the problem of the work to do and time scales involved - so I'm still very keen to get an apprentice.

As for the weekend plans - as usual, weekends continue to be worst time of the week in that I find myself more often than not alone. I hope Kevin and Polly are up for some fellowship tonight... otherwise, I'm alone again. Can't wait for Monday.

When will this social plight end?

2009-05-10T12:46:00.008+01:00

Where: SJJ Office
Listening: Rob Thomas - Lonely No More
Feeling: Lonely, a little rejected

Ok, so I haven't written on here for months, but in the last week I have really felt challenged to keep a journal. I know from previous experience that keeping a journal is a release and a therapy in itself, however, its just disciplining oneself to do it again.

Life at the moment is certainly far from brilliant to be honest, although I'm immensely thankful to God for all that has been done, for starters despite my current feelings, I am a changed person - my old life pre 2007 has gone and I am glad for that, God set me free during the DTS 07 at YWAM York, for which I am very grateful and glad. However, since coming back, I feel that I've slowly been forced into a mould which my life clearly doesn't fit. Ok, so the inner anger and pure rage I used to have is gone, sometimes though I have held clear bitterness towards the church here and even blamed the leadership for these problems.

Trouble is, once again - I do not feel a totally free man, I long for the feeling of freedom I experienced in York... in fact I long for lots more, but just the elation of being free would be great.

I can picture my life as a set of scales totally out of balance. On one side is my personal life which is so light and empty that my professional/work side which I feel is very rich and a lot more full pulls the scales down. Now, I'm in no way upset with my professional/work life - in fact I relish in it and am thankful to God for providing and making it possible. Again, new personality traits discovered in York have been essential in the success of this so far. However, one thing that truly worries me is the temptation to allow the professional/work life to over take the social life and even overtake God... this simply cannot be allowed to happen.

So what exactly is the problem? The problem is my social life I feel is very insignificant and wholly empty... I'm not saying I have no friends what so ever, but I am saying I feel I lack in that area. I don't think I've ever been in love, I am sick of doing things on my own or missing out on doing things I really want to do because of a lack of friends. But the thing that really drives me crazy and gets my back up in a major way is false friendship - I'm SICK AND TIRED of being taken for a ride and given false promises it hurts... in a major way... I don't deserve to be "second best" I more than the person to ask when others decline. Perhaps this is just the way I perceive things but its how I feel.

Therefor I have got into this horrible habit of avoiding most social situations and then not having to worry about being rejected. However, this is not an answer it just makes the problem worse... and now I feel lost and powerless to do either.

Sometimes I feel as if a veil is over me and I'm just invisible to others... I even had mild thoughts of suicide in April 2009 which I admit I managed to snap out of... but I'm worried those thoughts were even allowed anywhere near me.

I'd love to get married one day, but with such a crap social life, that's something which is never likely to happen... no girl would ever want me as I am... I know this because I don't want myself as I am...

When the breakthrough came in York, I was able to declare that I loved myself, but now - I don't love myself in the same way but I certainly do not hate myself like I used to.

I pray and ask God when can this social plight end? I've even had a go at God and accused him of destroying my life, which of course was a complete lie. But I get a sense that the Lord is saying to me now that thins will get better, that he is carrying me and that I will not want.

I also believe that God the Father is wanting me to draw very close to him, to experience what having a father is like. This is drawing me to tears now, because I grew up fatherless... and I find it very hard to look towards a father as I have no role model nor recollection of what it means to have father son time. I want to genuinely trust God, I really do, but I don't feel I trust him 100% even despite the things he has done for me... but I know one thing, I must draw near to him, if I go the other way - then life will indeed be a living hell of which I do not even want to think of what could happen.

Please, Lord Jesus, please take me to the Father, please help to me know, love and trust him and be his "dear and cherished son".

Almost time

2008-08-18T06:43:00.004+01:00

Where: Air Canada / SAS Lounge - Heathrow Airport
Listening: DJ X-Change - Glamorous
Feeling: Relaxed and Excited

So in just over 30 minutes time myself and my grandmother shall be boarding the plane for Canada... the cat was let out the bag this morning about the fact that we are going first class - she had no idea nor did she have any idea about the limo to the hotel yesterday!

A nice view of the tarmac from the lounge also... the whole check-in / security process was extremely quick and pleasant - being first class ticket holders we used the fast track lane - the one very minor niggle was the shoe inspection - we had it twice! Other than that I maintain my track record of setting the security buzzer off every time I fly! I find it hilarious now...

The next stop was of course the duty free and I felt privileged to obtain a 70Cl bottle of 15 year old Laphroaig - can't wait to take my first sip of that! But a bargain at £30.

Photos to follow at some stage...

Canada looms...

2008-08-16T00:16:00.003+01:00

Where: Home
Listening: Silverblue - Step Back
Feeling: Tired but excited

So, only a couple more sleeps and the Goose flies off to Canada for 4 weeks. I have to admit I cannot wait, been looking forward to it since May when it was all arranged and booked.

A short post really... perhaps when i'm less tired i'll blog a little about what has gone on recently... and i'll probably write an entry about my recent decision to leave St. Andrews church... finally.

Sex before marriage in the 21st Century

2008-08-12T00:10:00.007+01:00

Just a quick post to mirror a superb blog post by Mark Tiddy, a Christian Youth Worker and a friend of the Goose.

Its a real thought provoker on a subject which to many is laughable... but within a faith setting it is still and most probably will remain a controversial subject.

Check out the post by clicking here and leave your own comments as well if you wish.

The Colton House / Cambridge Diet

2008-08-05T21:50:00.012+01:00

Where: Colton House, Staffordshire
Listening: Safri Duo - Played A-Live (Bongo Song)
Feeling: Chilled Out

Well, on the diet front - things have got good... I'm eating decent healthy meals and am not taking in a lot of carbs at all... so kind of combining the Cambridge diet meal replacements with healthy meals provided by Ron & Gay at Colton House. It has been a real blessing just how accommodating they have been. Yesterday I had Lobster for the first time in years and tonight I had a crab... Breakfasts have been composed of Fish mainly...

As for the accommodation Colton House offers - I'd thoroughly recommend it to anyone wishing to stay in South Staffordshire - a couple of pics of the room I'm currently in:

Pictures of:
Columbine Room,
Colton House, Staffordshire.
http://www.coltonhouse.com

Loosened Up

2008-07-31T21:26:00.003+01:00

Where: Colton House, Staffordshire
Listening: Stereophonics - I Wouldn't Believe Your Radio
Feeling: Seriously Relaxed and Upbeat

So yesterday evening I had my back waxed for the second time, it hurt, but I really do not like back hair, so it was so good to know and feel that that hair which had grown since last November was being ripped out. Tonight, I had a Swedish full body massage and I must admit - I was really quite nervous - never done anything like it before, but a few friends said something like that would help me de-stress. They were right! I've not felt this relaxed physically for a long time, the other good thing was God was involved, I found myself led into a state of confessional prayer and got a lot off my chest with Abba.

To top it off, I've been eating relatively healthy this week - had a tuna steak with salad tonight - it was awesome! Most of the salad is fresh and grown in the garden here at Colton House. I'm certainly feeling good as a result. Breakfast has consisted of largely fish... another step out of my comfort zone, but I loved it!

I'm so glad to be working back at South Staffordshire & Shropshire Healthcare again, great bunch of peeps and I'm able to be a "contractor" here - I have a job to do - they let me get on with it which is awesome. Just the ideal wind down before Canada - which is just over 2 weeks away now!!! Really getting excited about it!

Back in Stafford

2008-07-28T22:46:00.003+01:00

Where: Colton House, Staffordshire
Listening: MPs bickering with Boris Johnson on BBC Parliament
Feeling: Amused by the somewhat childish antics of these politicians

Well, the time has come and I'm on the eve of starting a new contract with South Staffs & Shropshire NHS Foundation trust. Last year, this contract was extremely enjoyable but pulled short due to problems in the testing of the system. For the next three weeks I'll be working with Damian and Jonathan again but to produce the user materials and lesson scripts. This will be pure paradise compared to Stevenage.

So, 3 weeks until Canada, the excitement is starting to build up and up! Going to be so good to see my extended family again after so many years! It's also a treat for my grandmother, really want her to spend some time with her sister as well as give her a break. Hopefully going to be an awesome four weeks!!! - Just need to sort out work arrangements for September.

Need to get a blog up about Refresh Great Yarmouth sometime soon also - need to chat with Kevin first though.

End in Sight

2008-07-24T23:24:00.003+01:00

Where: Stevenage
Listening: Everyone Needs Compassion
Feeling: Relieved

Well finally the end is now in sight for this contract at East & North Hertfordshire NHS trust. Its been the worst contract I've ever worked - project team here have no idea what they are doing and they do not listen to us when we offer advice coming from working at other trusts previously... oh well... can't say we didn't offer!

Only a day left for me to do now, certainly feels good to be getting to the end of this contract - makes a change I suppose - my previous contracts have been enjoyable and it was a tad sad leaving, but one has to move on when freelance. Not long now until I jet off for Canada which I'm really looking forward to.

Oh well, don't know what else to write except that I'm yawning lots and I think I want to go to bed...

Fleeced by Atari

2008-07-21T16:59:00.003+01:00

Where: Home
Listening: Silverblue - Step Back
Feeling: P!*&ed Off!

Ok, I like to play games on the PC occasionally - and lets be honest - when you work away from home and live in Hotels/B&Bs - there is sometimes just nothing else to do in the evenings apart from eat...

So, unable to find a game I want today - I thought "Ahhh! I could go and pay for a download from Atari's website" - sounds easy doesn't it... pay for the product and the download it... what convenience and the price is cheaper!

Well, I think I was wrong with that thought! I have been unable to download the game and the Atari download software is about as much use as broken lamp... to top this - I have paid for the game as well... as it stands - I feel like I have been fleeced! Oh, and they don't seem to have telephone numbers to call either - all support is done via e-mail - probably the most inefficient way to support customers. ... I'm still awaiting a response - obviously Atari only care about you to get your money - once they have it - they couldn't give a dam!

So, beware of Atari and downloading games - they might fleece you otherwise!

End Rant...

Almost There...

2008-07-18T13:20:00.004+01:00

Where: Lister Hospital, Stevenage
Listening: Silverblue - Step Back
Feeling: "Stable"

Roll on 25th! End of contract looms and I can get out of here! This has been the worst contract I have ever worked on in my entire career so far. Survived somehow though, I personally thank God for the strength to get through each day. It has been exceptionally hard, extreme negativity from staff and a full time project team who do not have a clue and refuse to listen or accept any advice or help you want to give.

Back off to South Staffs on 29th until 15th August - then the Goose is migrating to Canada for 4 weeks. I cannot wait for that! What is it with the portrait pictures recently? - I have no idea why I'm taking these things - yet the camera has not broken at all!

Finally also stopped moving around Hotels - in a nice Bed & Breakfast in Datchworth which is worth the trip. They do amazing scrambled eggs and there are two pubs within walking distance!

The road to the bed & breakfast is a really nasty country lane with enough space for one vehicle width. I've dubbed it temptation lane, because its always tempting to be a right git and try and push your way through... none the less - I haven't tried that and I do not intend to! God delivers one from temptation if you ask!

The Bed & Breakfast is called Hawkins Grange Farm - and I really recommend it to anyone wanting to stay down in Hertfordshire - its located in Datchworth and its a farmhouse bed & breakfast. Really cosy en-suite room. The owners are very welcoming and friendly. No they did not pay for this - it's just a seriously nice B&B!

Another day at the Lister

2008-07-14T11:05:00.005+01:00

Current Location: Lister Hospital, Stevenage
Listening To: Shawn McDonald - All I Need
Current Feelings: This lot couldn't organise a piss up in a brewery

So another week begins with the usual - no organisation what so ever. It is so bad now that I've kind of stopped getting irate and instead all I feel I can do is laugh at the lack of organisation and communication. I think the tax payer will be very reassured that their money is tax is being spent in such a wise way here at East & North Hertfordshire NHS Trust. (I'll let you detect the sarcasm in that!)

This is by far THE WORST place I have ever worked... I thought my time on the Linksys help desk or Ipswich Hospital was bad... actually those jobs were bad - but they are paradise compared to here.

On a spiritual front, the place is dark, really dark and as such everyday is quite intense spiritual warfare. It was awesome last week when God poured out the Holy Spirit in A&E at Queen Elizabeth II hospital in Welwyn Garden City - the Spirit came in power and before long - the entire department was creasing up with Laughter which was spreading to others - Many of then just didn't exactly know what was funny, but they couldn't help but laugh! Both Christian & Non-Christian being affected by the glorious power of the Spirit, Hallelujah! Be awesome if this can happen at Lister also!

I look at Lister and its a big tower really... certainly not a small hospital. Currently sitting in a training room with no idea who is going to turn up and when... To be honest, I do not expect anyone to show up... at least though I'm back to normal hours for today at least... I'll get a little wound up if they change it again...

So people have said to me - what the heck are you there when it is this bad? Well... firstly, I had no idea it would be this bad... neither did the training company whom I subcontract to. Its now a case of I will stay until 25th as a move of defiance against the schemes of the enemy. I will stand should to shoulder alongside the other trainers and the training company as we all feel the same way about this one. Besides, I'm sure God is doing something - well I know this after what happened at QE2!

Been detrimental on the health as well... had to live on take aways delivered to the QE2 hospital last week due to the long hours and the fact that all I had time to do when I got back to the Hotel was sleep...

Oh well, guess its only 2 weeks left to ride the storm unless of course the contract gets cut short due to lack of funds - well lets face it, with the monkeys in charge of it showing extremely poor management skills - I would not be at all surprised if that happens!

JUST enough time to sleep...

2008-07-11T17:30:00.001+01:00

Where: QE 2 Hospital, Welwyn Garden City
Listening: Shawn McDonald - Gravity
Feeling: Tired but Relieved

What was supposed to be an easier week turned out to be a tough week after all... Working 14 hour days - although that's now been cut to 12 hours for today and tomorrow thankfully and the great thing is that I can go home for at least a day tomorrow evening!

Well it has certainly been hard work this last week... testing my faith a huge amount as well. As much as I dislike St Andrews - it will be nice going back there after not being able to attend church or worship God corporately for at least 2 weeks now.

Perhaps I'll blog again later or something - only 2 and a half hours left to work today! Back again at 8am tomorrow for 12 hours.

Working the Graveyard

2008-07-05T04:15:00.007+01:00

Where: A&E - Lister Hospital - Stevenage
Listening: Shawn McDonald - Gravity
Feeling: Surprisingly Awake considering it's 4:15 in the morning!

Today has been a rather weird feeling overall - I've worked some pretty late shifts in the past - but I've never done a full graveyard 10pm - 8am shift before...

Well, that's what I'm currently doing - had to shock my body into getting up later in the day - its going to be really weird going to bed at the sort of time that I'm normally up and getting to the stage of being wide awake!!!

It has been an eventful night though - had to make a quick journey to QE2 in Welwyn Garden City to pick up some sticky labels as they almost ran out here (yet again, outside contractors prevent the hospital being in deep crap because of their poor organisation). Aside from that - the evening has progressed well - produced a few user guides for the staff here. Did have a small cry to begin with because of the communication, disorganisation and attitude of another member of staff which led to the night shift receptionist going back to square 1 with little confidence - had to build that back up within her tonight - fortunately, she seems to be doing well again now! :o)

To put it bluntly, the North East Herfordshire NHS trust couldn't give a toss about the staff here - that's been shown in the organisation alone and the fact that they find it acceptable to just dump the staff into a live situation without adequate training before hand. I think a baby could do a better job of managing this project than the project team here could!

Oh well... another 3 and 3 quarter hours to go!

Goose & Arah in London

2008-07-01T22:30:00.001+01:00

Where: First Capital Connect Train - Somewhere near North London...
Listening: The Prodigy - Out of Space
Feeling: Hot but otherwise relaxed

So, the Goose has met up with Sarah this evening. It has been too long to be honest - haven't seen her since like November last year - so be a great catchup post YWAM York DTS. My taste buds were jumping up and down with joy as I was on the train to Kings Cross tonight. It was well worth it - this place Sarah booked as incredible... I've never had such a good time in a restaurant before. The whole experience was wonderful - very pleasant and welcoming staff, good beer, good quality food and a very nice atmosphere - a shock at first as you share a table with strangers - but that's a good thing - a move out of the comfort zone is good!

It was one of these places where the chef cooks your meal right in front of you - the guy who was at our table was really funny and projected a huge passion for cooking - he definitely enjoyed his job! He was very entertaining and cooked us a fantastic meal.

We had a 7 course meal - which isn't as big as it sounds - but exceptional value for money. A side dish of Sushi was ordered also... comprising of raw tuna, salmon & sea bass - it was a real treat!

Manged to pop a few pics in Piccadilly Circus before heading back to Kings Cross. Its this whole big advert thing on the corner of some building - I'm unsure as to what to make of it really... Sarah managed to escape the camera - I guess I'm not too fussed really...

None the less - it was an awesome experience and I really had a great time. It was so good to hang with Sarah again after so long - good to see she is well... A lot has happened since the end of the YWAM York DTS. It was good to reminisce on the good and reflect on the not so good. I hope to make the trip to London more often - need to meet up with Natalie again at some point!

Oh well, back to the Hotel - 14 hour day ahead!!!!

Familiar Sight

2008-07-01T11:36:00.001+01:00

Where: QEII Hospital, Welwyn Garden City
Listening: Lord of the Rings soundtrack
Feeling: Chilled

So, yesterday was certainly a pretty crappy day when it came to work - firstly, arrived at Lister Hospital in Stevenage as directed - only to not know where the heck to go nor what I was doing. Finally, I find out that I'm needed at QE2 in Welwyn Garden City. Could anything else go wrong? - of course!

I then discover that there are no lesson plans to teach with... and that we were expected to train just from our heads or from manuals which make no sense on a system that has not been properly configured. Ok, stress levels are rising now... I began recalling experience at both The James Paget an Ipswich Hospital in order to train - praise God I had that experience to call on... it saved my skin in a professional sense. I was certainly in a bit of a panic and at one point wanted to go home - the full time staff are virtually none existent - but have since learned that they have a huge problem with contractors and that money is the factor causing the issues - a shame they just don't understand that they are more expensive to employ...

There are however some familiar sights here - in the form of blue PC Coaching Training Pods... the last time I used one of these was at Ipswich Hospital in late 2006. Quite cosy when they don't leak in the rain! It's basically a converted trailer that can accommodate 10 learners for hands-on IT Training.

A shame the big plasma/lcd screen at the back is not HD - would have been interesting to plug a HDMI cable between it and my laptop and see what a blu-ray dvd would have been like!

Having the Air Conditioning is amazing though - it would be like a green house in one of these during a hot day - but you always get one learner who moans about the cold... always the minority spoiling it for everyone else!

Still unsure in what my decision will be with regards to an extension here... after the hassle of the first day and the general feel - I'm leaning heavily to saying no and wiping my hands of this place Sunday night. I have never worked anywhere so disorganised with staff so incompetent ever before.

Had an insanely hot curry last night with 3 rather strong beers - doubt I'll be doing that again - but to be honest I was in a mindset of "I don't care at the moment!"...

View from the Hotel window is "inspiring" as well...
Now the room at the Ibis is excellent considering the cheap price being paid for it... I am overall - very impressed. Car parking sucks though - costs £2.50 every time you leave the car park as the hotel shares the main shopping centre car park. But I can leave my car there all week and only pay £2.50 - I've chosen to train it to and from QE2 when I am there and perhaps get a bus to Lister - works out cheaper and is less aggravation especially as the A1 is nasty and often blocked between WGC and Stevenage. Besides that - the view from the hotel window is like looking over a concrete and glass jungle... it's not brilliant - but its not too bad... Not a bad Hotel for the money and is exceptionally good value if you use public transport as the train station is just 2 minutes walk!

All the better really - off to London tonight to meet Sarah and have Sushi! I can't wait for that...

Goose's Top 10 Pet Peeves when it comes to Driving

2008-06-27T23:18:00.002+01:00

Where: Home
Listening: Jakatta - American Dream
Feeling: Shattered + ready to rant :o)

The drive home tonight was certainly interesting - lots of road rage and annoying antics from some drivers. Well, in light of this - I thought it would be time for another rant... perhaps this time - the Goose's top 10 pet peeves when it comes to driving. So without further delay...

In at Number 10: Failure to use Indicators
All cars come with these little flashing orange lights which are designed to be used in order to inform other drivers if you wish to switch lanes, turn or are causing an obstruction. For goodness sake its not rocket science to use them... and why is it all BMWs seem to come with faulty indicators? Oh, and a single flash of an indicator is pathetically lazy and cannot be accepted even as an attempt to use them properly...

At Number 9: 4x4 Vehicles
These monstrosities of metal, plastic and rubber should be banned unless there is a genuine need of such a vehicle - Id still be very interested just to see how many of these things are ACTUALLY driven off-road? None the less - do you need a 4x4 to run the kids to school? NO! Do you need a 4x4 to drive around a town or city? NO! Do you own the road with a 4x4? NO! Are 4x4s actually any safer than the average 5 door saloon car? NO! Are 4x4s treated with utter contempt on the road by other drivers? YES!

So thinking of purchasing a "Chelsea Tractor" or "Mum Truck"? - do yourself a favour - buy a real car... save money on fuel and tax and reputation. Have a real need for a 4x4 - i.e. you fully intend to take it off road - the go for it!

Number 8 - Front Fog Lights
Why is it that on clear nights (sometimes days!!!) you can guarantee seeing a small engined hatchback driving with it's front fog lights turned on? Does the driver actually realise that these make absolutely no difference to their top speed or acceleration when turned on? Its annoying... (not to mention illegal!) turn the darn things off unless its foggy.

Number 7 - The Brakeaholic
Perhaps a new disorder amongst some motorists? Why is it that some drivers seem to brake (sometimes sharply) for no apparent reason or when nothing is front of them? This annoys the heck out of me and such behaviour can cause frigging accidents! Such braking can lead to congestion on major roads as everyone behind suddenly brakes - causing a surge of braking which can eventually bring many to a standstill... while the culprit carries on their brakeaholic spree - quite selfish, inconsiderate behaviour if you ask me!

At number 6 are the "wannabe wankers..."
So, you own a Chrysler 300 - guess what - its not a bloody Bentley! PT Cruisers are NOT classic cars! In fact, most Chryslers are most likely cheap and unreliable and have nothing in common to the real Bentley or classic... - so get off the high horse and accept the fact that every other driver on the road is either taking the mickey or feeling sorry for you...
Or perhaps you are one step further and have a small engined car covered in plastic in an attempt to make it look like a Ferrari? - quit while you're ahead... no one will want to go near you as you most likely are not insured on all that plastic hanging on your car...

In at number 5 come the mobile phone users...
I've almost lost count of how many near misses I've seen due to other drivers yapping away with the mobile phone glued to their ears. Not only is this illegal and can land one 3 points a fine - it's flipping dangerous... bluetooth headsets are dirt cheap now and most phones now have bluetooth. Some cars even come with blue tooth in the stereo. If you insist on talking with the phone glued to your ear - then do the sensible thing and pull over... (yes, this includes van drivers!)

Full beams at number 4
This is just one of those pet peeves that drive you crazy... why is it some people cannot seem to drive on just dipped headlights alone? You flash someone who is heading towards you with full beams on because you cannot see a darn thing - either they turn them off which is cool - or they don't bother and before you know it - both you and the other driver are having a beam war... Full beams can also be associated with tail gators - but then on a motorway or duel carriageway - I bet you didn't know that it is perfectly legal to give a slow driver a 3 second beam flash as a gesture to politely ask them to move out of the way - usually though - this results in road rage and the slow driver becoming a "brakeaholic!"

The cutter uppers come in at Number 3
If combined with failure to indicate then this becomes really really irritating! This will also include drivers who clearly fail to use their mirrors when pulling out into a lane or looking where they are going when pulling out of a junction - sometimes I wonder how the heck such people managed to pass a driving test... Anyway - the White Van Man stereotype here is not true on its own - I've been cut up by many car drivers and narrowly avoided a couple of crashes due to such behaviour from others. Do everyone a favour and look at where you are going...

Boy/Girl racers race to number 2
I'm sure many of us share this pet peeve... you are cruising along nicely when suddenly a little 3 door hatchback comes from no where fully weighed down by tons of pointless plastic complete with a "shopping" trolley spoiler on the top and nothing but "boom boom boom boom" can be heard. Then before you know it - the car is tailgating you and tries to make its point clear by overtaking you in loudness as the small 1.2 litre engine gutlessly pulls the car and plastic past you - complete with the very irritating sound of the "fart box" / "baked bean tin" for an exhaust - making the car sound well... not faster than it actually is... Unfortunately though, it seems many of us go through such phases of life especially when we get our first car - but then some people just never grow up. To some extent it is hilarious to see these pathetic plastic wrecks try and race super fast cars such as a Nissan Skyline GTR... None the less - the major pet peeve for me is that these "plastic cars" are most likely NOT covered by insurance as the plastic modifications etc would not have likely been declared - effectively making these cars uninsured... so be very cautious when driving anywhere near them.

And finally for me, the tail gators are are number 1.
Something that bugs the living energy out of me - why drivers want to drive so close is a mystery to me... However, tailgating seems to come in different flavours... there the the "I want to go faster tail gators" - where they sit up your backside in the outside lane of a dual carriage way or motorway flashing their beams at you and most likely giving other forms of abuse such as the finger or swearing. Then there are those who just want to be annoying so and sos and do it for no apparent reason... And then tailgating is a form of revenge for say being cut up or otherwise offended by the behaviour of another driver. Let's get real here - tailgating whatever the form - IT IS NOT BIG NOR CLEVER! It is dangerous and can lead to a pile up if the car in front suddenly braked for whatever reason oh and guess what - you don't get to where you want to go any faster overall by tailgating... so back off!

I get seriously annoyed when I see someone tailgate a learner driver - it is appalling behaviour and such drivers should be banned if you ask me - we all had L plates once...

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So, these are my pet peeves - yes they may offend, and no I do not care lol! Feel free to comment with your pet peeves of driving.

New Pastures Await

2008-06-27T16:19:00.003+01:00

Where: Trafford General Hospital, Urmston, Manchester
Listening: Nic giving me verbal abuse...
Feeling: Happy & Joyful

So, how is it that I feel happy and joyful despite being given verbal abuse? Well, its friendly banter really and to be honest - I give as good as I get!

Another contract comes to a close... a new chapter awaits - this time its Stevenage from Monday... some long hours and nights in a Go-Live floor support role. Good thing I know most of the trainers already on site...

Oh well, never going to win an argument against Nic - so going to declare my defeat and back down - but perhaps the next time I banter with the girlfriend - I may stand a better chance of victory!

Signing off from Manchester....

That was quick!

2008-06-24T17:35:00.003+01:00

Where: Starbucks, Trafford Center, Manchester
Listening: The thoughts of my mind
Feeling: Relaxed

Well, the contract here has been cut short - I received my weeks notice today - but I'm now off to Stevenage for a weeks worth of iPM training/floor walking.

Very impressed with the company I sub-contract for - lining the work up nicely. Once the week at Stevenage is done - its off to Warwick.

So - now the rush is on to sort Accomodation in Stevenage - much fun! As if there is only three days left of this contract... hehe sometimes, time flies...

Stronghold of Mammon - Battle of Orient

2008-06-23T18:02:00.004+01:00

Geared up for battle behind enemy lines, wearing not armour, but casual clothing, blended in nicely with the unsuspecting.

Casually walking towards the temple of doom with its spires of glass and statues of lions & angels blowing trumpets over fountains suggesting tranquillity.

The enemy notices not the entry the warrior makes and so the enemy is unsuspecting as the warrior infiltrates deep into the inner sanctum of the temple of doom.

The warrior prays to, and draws strength from his God. Claiming the location by faith through the power of the Spirit of the sovereign Lord for the Kingdom and Glory of God.

Alerted and caught off guard, the enemy faces onslaught from within. A trumpet call is sounded as a host of Angels from the heavens descend on the location claimed for the Kingdom by the warrior. A battle ensues between the host of Angels and the Demons as the warrior trains his bow on the unsuspecting enemy below. The warrior's cloak & veil is now fully removed. The enemy attempts to attack the warrior but the counter attack is futile as the warrior relies on his Faith in his God who is mighty and glorious in battle.

The battle between the Angels and Demons descends to the lower level of the banqueting hall whilst the warrior continues to pick off and banish individual demons one by one with the authority granted to him by his Glorious and Victorious God; by faith the warrior defends the claimed prize of the Kingdom of God; the spoils of war are sure to follow as the warrior is assured of what is hoped for by his Faith in his mighty God.

Praising his God, the warrior cries out against the darkness commanding it to be gone in the mighty name of his Lord and Saviour, the almighty, the great I am, the Lord Jesus Christ. Spirit of the sovereign the Lord come and fill this place, make it your dwelling place.

The Angels begin to sing of the greatness of the Lord whilst in the height of battle, the enemy cowers down and begs as the swords and spears pierce them & send them back to the abyss.

The hall shakes with the power of the sovereign Lord, the idols are broken, the spirits of gluttony, mammon, selfishness, pride, arrogance and deception retreat to the commercial halls.

An Angel of the Lord appears to the warrior, "do not be afraid he says...", "I am Raphael, and I bring blessings and peace from the Lord of Hosts, who is very pleased". The warrior declares all Glory to the Lord and bows his head in adoration of his great God. Together the angel of the Lord and the warrior worship the Lord in humbleness.

The enemy is regrouping, but the forces of the Kingdom of God march on to victory; for the Lord God already stands victorious over the enemy. The angels and the warrior declare:

The enemy has been defeated
And death couldn't hold You down
We're gonna lift our voice in victory
We're gonna make Your praises loud

Shout unto God with a voice of triumph
Shout unto God with a voice of praise
Shout unto God with a voice of triumph
We lift Your name up
We lift Your name up

Twat!

2008-06-19T17:26:00.003+01:00

Where: Starbucks, Trafford Centre, Manchester
Listening: Liquid - Orlando Dream
Feeling: Embarassed, Shaken as well as feeling like a total twat!

So where do I begin with this one? A nice bright and early start this morning which was rather good. So, I work until 15:00 as I go back tonight at 19:00 to train some late shift staff. Ahhhh - I'll hunt down one of the Bannatynes Clubs in Manchester and go for a swim - easier said than done - I will never drive round Manchester again if I can help it! To make matters worse I ended up giving a consultant gastroenterology surgeon a 5mp shunt up the backside. My heart skipped a beat at this point as the Black Mercedez pulled in (as did I).

"Shit" - I thought out loud... this ain't going to be pleasent. So, I admitted liability as I took my eyes off the road for a split second - that was all it took!!! No major damage thankfully - just an impact scuff mark or whatever - no dents, no dislodged bumpers. I thought to myself, this is really minor, thankfully the consultat agreed. However, I did feel guilty and obviously apologised - offering the relevant details - however, hopefully this will be solved without the need of the rip off merchants known as insurance companies. I'm happy to pay for any work that would need to be done - lets be frank here - its not worth the excess id have to pay anyway! Who knows, perhaps the whole thing would blow over...

So, I'm seriously stressed out to some extent - failing to locate a Bannatynes that was supposedly in the city centre and driving up some consultants backside... what else could go wrong? Oh, spending almost an hour trying to work out how to escape the city centre as the sat nav was next to useless... oh joy... at least I can sit in Starbucks for a bit and try to unwind... I need a blueberry muffin now!

Diet Suspended - Still Loosing Weight!!!

2008-06-18T20:40:00.003+01:00

Where: Starbucks, Trafford Centre, Manchester
Listening: Phil Collins - In The Air Tonight
Feeling: Relieved

After 3 trips to HMV to sort out a faulty movie (Jumper) I bought on Blu Ray I finally get it sorted by exchanging it for Sweeney Todd... my first blu ray movie and I'm rather impressed with the quality of it all....

Anyways, diet wise... the main reason behind this post... After speaking with the diet counsellor and explaining the situation - we have agreed that it would be a wise and sensible move to resume a normal meal content to avoid fatigue and tiredness. However, this doesnt mean that I will go mad - so big take outs and naughty things are to be kept ot a minimum - which suites me fine!

Despite this - I'm still loosing weight which I want to keep doing even though it may be a bit slower than before.

My contract here finishes on 4th July - so perhaps after a meeting with th Diet Counsellor - I may be able to restart the diet - we'll see...

What's Going On...?

2008-06-16T14:25:00.004+01:00

Where: Starbucks, Trafford Centre, Manchester
Listening: Adiemus - Adiemus
Feeling: Well, Relaxed

So, some people are asking me - whats going on with the Diet? How is it going? What is it like being away from home and sticking to it?

Well I guess now is a good time to answer... the truth is - its been really tough, and I mean REALY TOUGH. Yes, the trafford centre has much to tempt even the hardest of tastebuds. The real issue however, is surprisingly not the food... its actualy getting the time to eat anything at all! Work is busy thats for sure. However, with not being able to get time to munch a cambridge meal bar or drink a shake at work - I have not been keeping to the diet exactly... however - neither have I binged or eaten loads...

I'm stuck in a bit of a limbo at the moment trying to decide whether or not its wise trying to keep to a very low calarie diet whilst not being able to always eat what I have to... the last thing I want to be is exhausted. I have been taking in Carbs though for this very reason - however I havent put any weight on and clothes are becoming too big... mind you - this current Job is very active - i'm walking around 3 - 4 miles sometimes at work in a single day - thats floorwalking and training support for you though!! - thats got to be a good thing surely.

I need to speak to the diet counsellor ASAP really though.

Other than this - I am feeling well and suffering no ill effects or anythig - well I tell a fb - perhaps spout of tiredness which creeps up suddenly... otherwise i'm becoming very concious off the lack of calories I'm taking in. What I have been eating - well its certainly not junk... I'm trying hard to keep to healthy options with plenty of veg - but I have been a bit naughty on occasion - but its kept to a minimum.

I'll blog when I make a decision - I don't know if its wise to postpone the diet for the duration of this contract...

Aside from this - everything is good... finally found a Bannatynes club in the area to swim at - but at the moment I don't think that would be wise given my diet situation.

A small rant to finish - the flipping spell checked thing doesnt appear to be working either :o(

Monster House Hotel

2008-06-09T19:29:00.006+01:00

Where: Starbucks, Trafford Centre, Manchester
Listening: Shawn McDonald - Take My Hand
Feeling: Relieved

Ok, so sometimes when you are working away - making efforts to reduce expense especially on accomodation can yield fruit... if only this was the case all the time!

I was a little touchy on paying out around £65 a night at a Premier Travel Inn in Manchester, so in a bid to reduce this expense I start to trawl the Internet in search of decent bugdet accomodation. I stumble accross a Hotel called Monton House Hotel - on the website - it looks rather nice, and even more attractive is that I could shave an impressive £25 off the price I was paying at Premier Travel Inn. "Excellent" I thought to myself... I'll book for 5 nights...

So, Sunday comes around and I go to check into this rather nice looking cheap hotel and it all looked ok from the outside. First impressions were initially good... until I got checked in and headed towards my allocated room.

The hallways were appaling, faded decor, poor light fittings, broken ceilings and a lift which is only big enough for 2 people with a squeeze.

Oh, things were going to get better I thought - perhaps the rooms are nicer... boy I could not have been any more wrong as I walked into the room and had my first impressions. Faded decor, intense heat, small, old & very unconfortable bed complete with what appeared to be bodily fluid stains all over the sheets. I'm glad I didnt vomit...

No soundproofing or the walls were composed entirely of plasterboard with no dampening - because I could hear the occupants of the rooms next door and sounds of them doing their business in the bathroom. Perhaps I could at this stage be annoying and fart exteremly loudly to add my fair share of flatulence perhaps to show just what I thought at this stage.

Ok, so I thought I'll do one night here before I check out... the decision to check out the next morning was made in the same ammount of time it would take me to decide to kiss my girlfriend if I was hugging her closely...

2:30am - I'm woken up by the occupant in the room next door having a dump... following by the noisy pipework following the flushing of the loo... thats it I thought - phoned the Premier Inn and booked a room for the next 4 nights. I finished packing my things again by 3:30am. By 4am I managed to get my head down for a few hours sleep.

Up at 7am - Amazing by how I didnt sleep in - but then a major incentive was to get out of the Hotel as quickly as possible. Never again will I stay at Monton House Hotel or should I say Monster House Hotel? Shall I carry on to say the shower head was covered in a foul thick black gunk substance - or am I going too far now??? - at least the toilet seemed to work....

It's a shame really - if Venture Group (the owners of the Hotel) poured money into this hotel I think it could be a very nice place to stay - but it seems they are not interested. The hotel would perhaps accomodate those too drunk to realise the appaling state of the place...

So - websites can certainly be deceiving - but at least that ordeal is over and I can look forward to a good nights sleep at the Premier Inn... from now on - with the added bonus of the fun of the Trafford Centre.

Worth the extra £25??? - well it certainly seems so at this stage.... I so want something hot & spicy now...

Goose migrates to Manchester

2008-06-08T23:32:00.003+01:00

Where: Manchester
Listening: Tim Hughes - Almighty God
Feeling: So So

Well, in Manchester for the next 4 weeks at least. Contract at Trafford General Hospital this time training UltraGenda BedManager - part of a new flavour of Patient Administration Systems in the NHS. I must say - so far this is very enjoyable!

I will re-start the diet tomorrow - seeing as this contract was rather spontaneous - I figured the last thing I needed was to go through the tiredness of the three days before Ketosis kicks in...

It also means no need to have a breakfast in the morning, lunch etc - OR I could have a breakfast but then bars etc for the rest of the day. Might be interesting - just got to be fussy over what I do eat though!!!

Off to Canada in August for 4 weeks - finalised my flights a couple of nights ago - looking forward to seeing the family again. Hopefully though I'll have another short term contract before taking to the sky!

Plateau

2008-05-27T17:41:00.004+01:00

Where: Home
Listening: OneHundredHours - King of Every Heart
Feeling: Mushed but Cheerful

Well, first things first - I need to keep telling myself its Tuesday and NOT Monday - don't you just hate bank holiday weekends for the sheer fact that they play with your mind when it comes to knowing what day of the week it is!

On the plus side, the past several days have been amazing! Ok, it rained on both Sunday and Monday - but what the heck... Geese don't mind rain...

I went away with my girlfriend to Cambridge on Saturday and we had a walk around the city and stuff - I have to say its one of more beautiful cities I have visited some really nice green areas and incredible architecture on the buildings.

We also went to Thorpe Park on Monday - have not been for years and a lot has changed but despite getting soaked from head to toe - It was a great day. Going on Stealth in the rain was interesting - we used the fast track ticket to beat the queue and ended up riding the front seat. I could compare the experience of being launched at 80Mph in 2 seconds in the rain to being slapped round face several hundred times... yet it was a good adrenaline fix for me!!!

I also had different evening meals instead of strictly following Cambridge this weekend. They were not exactly healthy to say the least but flipping nice! Regardless of that - On the whole, I Plateaued on the weight loss - but still lost 2½lbs for the week :o) This brings my total to around the 1 and a half stone mark - not bad for 3 weeks.

Weight Loss of 2½lbs
Between 19/05/2008 - 27/05/2008

Total Weight Loss Since 06/05/2008:-
20lbs

... Now I must not try to get cocky and brag that I ate crap and still lost the weight! I fully intend to swim hard tonight.

Fancy a Change

2008-05-22T08:57:00.002+01:00

Where: James Paget Hospital
Listening: Shawn Mc Donald - Gravity
Feeling: Upbeat

So, just to say really - I'm bored of the current colour scheme and layout of this blog - I think I'm going to make some changes... I'm useless with colours mind you - if anyone has any colourful suggestions, please do share! Otherwise, bear with me...

Goodbye Cambridge Soups....

2008-05-19T18:00:00.003+01:00

Where: Home
Listening: Haddaway - What Is Love
Feeling: Encouraged

Well, a second week has now passed and to some extent I just cannot believe the amount of weight I have lost. As strange as it may sound - stepping on the scales at the weigh in has become a bit of a pleasant experience!

Firstly though, I must admit things got tough going over the weekend - my weekend routine is none existent instead it is rather spontaneous. Soups & Shakes are rather impractical as a result - I totally forgot about one of the soups on Saturday (not that it was a bad thing!!!). On the other hand - I'm totally sick of soups now and have had enough of them - they were really starting to make me feel sick - but that is likely just me - as I am like that with all soup - it doesn't take long to make me sick haha!

Speaking with the diet counsellor today about these issues I have now swapped the soups of additional shakes and meal bars. Sounds far more practical now especially for the weekends; so Goodbye Cambridge Soups... and good riddance! haha!

An encouraging weigh in today:-

Weight Loss of 7½lbs
Between 12/05/2008 - 19/05/2008

Total Weight Loss Since 06/05/2008:-
17½lbs

I think that's like around 1½ stone or something - either way I'm really encouraged by it! All the more important I loose weight now anyway seeing as I've just been placed on a waiting list for surgery on my nose...

First Weigh In

2008-05-13T00:06:00.004+01:00

Where: Home
Listening: Godfrey Birtill - Very God
Feeling: Chuffed

Well, today the first weigh in since starting the Cambridge Diet a week ago! I have to admit, I have found it easier than I expected and the sachet things you get are actually pretty good!

Weight Loss of 10lbs
Between 06/05/2008 - 12/05/2008

I'm so pleased with it and as the week progressed I felt really good and already started to notice the difference physically!

Another week now looms - but with that weight loss, it is a huge encourgaement to carry on.

Above all though, I thank God! I believe that only in His strength has this been possible - the temptation for all the nice & naughty stuff I used to like was just not present...!

Last Night Of The Transfats

2008-05-05T20:27:00.005+01:00

Where: Home
Listening: Well.. watching/listening to video of X at Six Flags Magic Mountain
Feeling: Like I so want to go to America and ride X, the most INSANE roller coaster I have ever witnessed.

This thing is totally insane... you just gotta see it to believe it!

I can only guess that this bad boy has got to be experienced to totally understand. Right, time for me to diary an adrenaline junkie week in America at some point :o)

Insane roller coasters aside, tomorrow I start the Cambridge diet because to be honest I'm a bit of a fat sod... lol None the less - I wont be allowed much to eat - I'll be drinking 2 shakes and having 1 soup a day as well as a small main meal comprising of vegetables, skinless chicken or grilled white fish. I'm looking forward to it mind you though. I'll try and post weekly blogs on my progress.

That aside, I did ask a few friends what really greasy, transfat filled meal could I have grab tonight to mark the occasion? The one answer that came back was a large kebab dripping with grease. I decided to pass on it and settle for ribs & chips instead...

Looks appetising doesn't it? :o)

As If I Have Not Posted Since January!?!?!

2008-05-04T10:34:00.004+01:00

Where: Home
Listening: Mel C - Beautiful Intentions
Feeling: Confident

Well, perhaps its time I did post again?! Starting the Cambridge diet next week because I'm carrying loads of fat I wanna get rid of - first time I've ever done anything like this though - I'm normally a diet skeptic but I like what I've seen and read about Cambridge. I may use the blog to diary the progress I hopefully make.

I got a new toy yesterday - a little program called No Limits which is a roller coaster simulator - so a nice way to waste time if you have it to waste! Difference with this one is you can build your own coasters!

I'll end this brief post with my first coaster in No Limits.

Alienated / Rant

2008-01-27T16:48:00.001Z

Where: Home
Listening: One Hundred Hours - One Day
Feeling: Tending my wounds in a spiritual sense

Belong - Believe - Behave OR Behave - Believe - Belong?
Should a church make you feel welcome and project a feeling on belonging? Or should a church expect you to conform to a certain "way" or behaviour combined with belief before they make you feel welcome and included?

I know what my answer to that is. I swear to God that there is NO way I will ever allow man's religious practises to EVER consume me or "conform" me. I feel I can get really angry with a church that does not give a sense of belonging and expects me to conform to way's decided by them largely based on the past! - including things such as confirmation which I believe to have absolutely NO BASIS in scripture what so ever.

I have decided to be baptised by immersion on Easter Sunday in York. Yet, some of the folk at what I once though of as church family that I felt I belonged to have effectively thrown condemnation at me because I was already baptised as an infant and confirmed. My answer to this judgemental attitude is simple - I was 4 years old when I was "sprinkled" with water - I DID NOT make that choice for MYSELF. Confirmation was thrown at me when I was 19/20 - shortly after finding Jesus for MYSELF. I was blind, did not understand the difference between man's religion and faith. I blindly went to be confirmed, no woosh, no wow factor - just an incredibly rude rector at a different C of E Church with a local congregation equally as polite with their first greeting being a hugely rash "WHO ARE YOU?!" the moment I walked in through the door. Ok, humanity is flawed, no one is perfect. None the less - I've ironically experience a better witness of Christianity from those who actually are Atheist and have no found Jesus - why is this?! Religion is the answer there... the amount of church's that conform and try to mould others into a religion scares me.

In all the church's I've been to over a period of time, the only church I have really experienced a freedom to worship God, as well as been made to feel welcome with a very warm sense of belonging is the Ark in York. Even now, I wish I was back in York; I miss everyone there. Not once did I feel I was being made or "indoctrinated/brainwashed" to conform to a man made rule set. I'm hardly surprised that the Lord moves at the Ark; I really want to go back. Times like this, I wish Star Trek transporter technology was available and that I could beam myself 250 miles or so to the Ark every Sunday morning and be with who I consider a loving & welcoming Christian family.

I certainly feel I'm at a major decision point or rapidly approaching it - do I walk away from the Church of England or do I stay? - Every time I have "attempted" to leave, the Lord has spoken to me and said no... there is some role I am to play - I currently only feel the reason I'm still there is out of obedience to God. What is I am to do? Why is the whole ordeal becoming more and more painful? I know the Lord won't actually "stop" me from leaving, I have the ability to make choices, he will not stop that - but I still choose to be obedient to my God - yet there are times such as today where I have never felt so far from him :o(

I was terrified for my faith earlier, I really thought it was buckling and crashing, praise God for Karl and a word from Psalm 62:5 Find rest, O my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from him. I think at that moment today, It was a verse that reinforced what was left of my faith. The Lord rescued me from the jaws of darkness, for which I am grateful.

I have no idea where I would be without Kevin, a true friend and brother in Christ, lifting me up with encouragement. I very enjoy his company and hanging out with him. I will be very sad when he moves to Kent later this year.

I know my rant is probably not pleasant toward the Church of England, but I do not mean any judgement or offense to them... some C of E Churches that I have been to have shown me that the Church of England can avoid religion all together - I just wish St. Andrews was one of them...

Melancholy Choleric

2008-01-14T00:17:00.001Z

Where: Home
Listening: DJ Tiesto - In My Memory
Feeling: Chilled

Yup, I've been at the 4 temperaments personality test again. Second time since I did the test when in York last year. I found the test incredibly interesting and quite deep also. My results last year was the Melancholy Choleric.

This evening they are still the same however, the percentages have changed slightly. I'm not as Sanguine as I used to be; but I have not budged from 3% phlegmatic.

So, what is said about Melancholy Choleric? According to 4Marks.com:

"The melancholic-choleric is also a leader with the potential to accomplish great works. However, where the choleric-melancholic is driven by the challenge and the opportunity, the melancholic-choleric is inspired more by the nobility of the task. The introverted nature of the melancholic, combined with the focused and unempathic nature of the choleric, can result in an individual who is highly motivated by noble ideals (even humanitarian ones), but who prefers to work alone, rather than with people. The melancholic side of both temperament mixtures results in the project being organized, ethical, and high-minded, while the choleric aspect is the driving and demanding force.
If you are melancholic-choleric, you are somewhat less pragmatic (or utilitarian) than a pure choleric, just as persevering and determined, and with a greater emphasis on the ideal. Likely to be motivated by the most noble and demanding of causes, you are capable of founding a humanitarian society, composing a symphony, founding a school, or discovering a cure. You are organized, perfectionist, introspective, driven, and moody (though less so than a pure melancholic). You will be less active than a choleric-melancholic and less extraverted, more internally focused.
But your weaknesses include a tendency to excessive self-criticism and criticism of others, being dismissive or overly judgmental, exhibiting a tendency to self-absorption, and possessing an untrustful and controlling nature. You tend to be inflexible, can bear grudges for a long time and may be prone to discouragement. A melancholic-choleric who is not attentive to his spiritual life, and does not keep his eye assiduously on the truly important things of life can become a cross to those around him, through his nit-picking, perfectionism, disdain, bitterness, resentfulness, spitefulness when crossed, and even haughtiness."
Quite interesting, just gotta make sense of what applies to me and what doesnt... still it fascinates me...

Highlights of 2007 & Onwards into 2008

2008-01-01T02:04:00.002Z

Where: Home
Listening: Chad Kroeger Feat. Josey Scott - Hero
Feeling: Upbeat

So, another year gone in a flash... yep, 2007 certainly went very quickly... I suppose my time with YWAM York makes it seem so - then again although it was very tough at times, it was immense fun also!

So, what were my highlights of 2007?

YWAM York DTS 07 (Jan - Aug 07)

Without a doubt this has to be the top of the list. This was one experience I will never forget for the rest of my life. I would most certainly not be the person I am today if it was not for the DTS and the people that I met during my time there. It was great fun yet at times it was the hardest thing I have ever taken on - but boy was it worth every drop of sweat and every feeling of pain. I wish YWAM York every success and a prosperous year for the 2008 DTS. God bless you guys

Outreach in London with Earl's Court Community Project (ECCP) (Aug 07)

2 week long experience that I was initially very unsure about, yet something that reinforced new found confidence gained in York. Being on the front line for God and helping those on the edge of society was a real privilege and great joy. The ECCP team were wonderful folks and I will not forget them and all that they do. I'd love to be able to have the opportunity to help them out again at some point if possible.

Getting back in the training room (Oct - Dec 07)

Once the YWAM stuff was over it was back to finding work again. I decided to try my hand at going freelance in IT Training and boy was it incredible. Working away, doing what I love & know I am good at, no office politics & getting paid almost 3 times more than what I used to be (that's the bonus). The only drawback was lack of evening social - it did get lonely - none the less, the whole experience was good and I intend to carry on. Just before Christmas 07 I setup my own limited company and began treading the road to making my dream of having an IT Training Center a reality.

Köln Weihnachtsmärkte 2007 - Cologne, Germany (Dec 07)

Following the contract in Stafford I really did fancy taking myself away for a few days. Germany is a country I love and continually want to visit. So, I got a train to Europe and had a fabulous time. Apparently the Germans I spoke to said I speak very good German. I have to confess I enjoy speaking different languages, but German is a real favourite and I intend to learn & practise more. The Christmas markets were wonderful and it was Christmas shopping with a difference. My facebook profile contains all the pics - as does my Picasa photo album (unfortunately, using cameras is still a huge weakness I have :o( )

Well, onwards to 2008, got some things planned for sure one of which is my baptism by immersion in York on Easter Sunday which will be open air in the center of the city and I will be baptised by Stephen Redman & Archbishop John Sentamu. Yes, I was "christened" as an infant, however I have my own personal reasons for this decision and I believe immersion to more accurate in biblical terms as infant baptism was actually a catholic creation which was kept in the Church of England when Henry VIII split from the catholic church so he could marry another 5 woman! Anyway, I won't keep going on with this point; I'm looking forward to this day, shortly followed by Spring Harvest 2008. Who knows what else the year will hold, I expect to be doing a fair bit of IT Training as well - wouldn't be the same otherwise.

I pray God will bless us with a prosperous and wonderful year no matter what life may throw at us.

Goodbye 2007, Hello 2008 : : : Happy New Year!
~ Steve the Extravagant Goose

Life is a Rollercoaster

2007-12-30T18:01:00.001Z

Where: Home
Listening: Coldplay - Clocks
Feeling: So So & thoughtful

Highs & lows are all part of life. Since coming back from Germany I have hit a lonely & depressing low. Ok, fair enough, coming back from any holiday or break has its own set of lows anyway. However I'm starting to question what is left for me here though. Is it time to move? I work away during the week anyway and many of my original friends have moved on. I always knew working away would be hard on the social aspect - but what choice do I have - I work away because that is where the work is! It seems that I have a "weekend only" social life. I guess it's been tougher due to the time of year and what friends I have all went their ways with family over Christmas as to be expected really. Then again, and uplifting thought is the fact I get to hang out with my best friend tomorrow evening.

A couple of days ago things were better, got to see one of my step brothers for the first time in many years. Was really cool hanging out and catching up. That high ended the moment he went home to London.

So, all miserable sounding and such, but surely where does God fit into the equation? Of course he is around all the time being omnipresent, yet its not quite the same as being around other human beings. Genesis clearly says it is indeed bad for us to be alone... heck God knows this that's for sure. Though the couple of times I have had a little cry to him for no real apparent reason, I felt a great deal of comfort. Yes, I love God, however I just want to take this moment to point out that I'm not one of those "uber spiritual, holier than thou" Christians.

On the plus side, when one is down in the dumps of lowness - an easy positive can be made by the fact that the lowness will end when one gets a high again (not by taking drugs or getting drunk I must add). In fact, I eagerly await my next high... hmmm... writing this out seems to be helping as well... ahhh yes, blogging, certainly one form of "release"!

So, what else have I been doing to "release"? Well, in a stupid attempt to run from the lowness I took to computer games - nothing violent; in fact I got into Rollercoaster Tycoon 3. Although very fun and sadly addictive... I discovered a release through creativity. Ok, so it is not painting or musical, yet building roller coasters and creating a scenic virtual theme park was quite invigorating. Riding your roller coasters is good fun also, especially if it is all themed and such... I recorded one of mine (aptly named "The Vampire" please note that the whole thing is fictious and is not a sign of me rebelling against my faith in God ;o)) and added a Nickelback song to it.

At the end of the day, the analogy of life as being a roller coaster is quite accurate if you ask me... its full of the ups and downs - and sometimes things just go upside down as well!

...ok you can call me a geek now :o)

Gehen nach Deutschland

2007-12-16T02:06:00.001Z

Where: Home
Listening: Theme: Lord of the Rings - Forth Eorlingas (featuring Ben Del Maestro)
Feeling: Tired

So, while the remaining mp3s are transferred to my little Creative Zen mp3 player I thought that perhaps I should post a blog. Well, the contract in Stafford ended last week and I have been home since. It was a good experience overall and certainly felt good to be teaching again.

I've also been wanting to take a trip abroad again especially to Germany. With this in mind I am booked to head to Köln on Monday for 2 nights. Will be great exploring the Christmas markets there that's for sure. I have been to Germany twice before and it was an amazing experience both times...

I head to London tomorrow and stay the night in order to be at St. Pancras for 05:30 so I can get the 06:00 Eurostar to the continent (changing at Brussels).

I am going alone, the thought scared me at first, but actually it will be a fantastic opportunity to focus on God whilst being away from the distractions at home. I'm very much looking forward to it. Wednesday will be a long day mind, as I don't get back to London until 22:05 - and then I have to get to Liverpool Street in order to get the train back home... wouldn't be a problem if I didn't have a CT Scan at 09:00 the next day! oh well... have a great Christmas!

It is almost home time

2007-12-04T23:01:00.001Z

Where: Colton House, Colton, Staffordshire
Listening: Genesis - Jesus He Knows Me
Feeling: Relaxed, Upbeat

Well... quite a bit has happened since my last entry. Firstly, my contract with South Staffordshire Mental Health NHS Trust is ending 2 weeks early than the original date. Something went wrong with the system and so they post-poned it to next year - the decision was made to issue 5 day notices to the trainers yesterday. To be honest, I was expecting it... so it was no huge surprise. To add to the mixture - I have come down with some kind of weird infection which has covered my feet with small rashes and blisters. Two pharmacists have said its looking like a fungal infection of some sort... however it is responding to some over the counter anti-fungal remedy.

So what now... well I finish here on Friday. I don't anticipate taking any contracts for the remainder of this year, although the agencies have already been in touch like a swarm of locusts bearing down on a field of crops. Plenty of work in January so will certainly look at getting something in the pipeline then.

A little emotional to some extent, met some wonderful people since being here and it has been great to work with Jonathan again. I really thank God for the opportunity this contract was back in October and for the experience I have had.

Now... perhaps I should continue looking into booking a weekend in Aachen, Germany before Christmas.

Supposedly Cash Strapped NHS manages to put 50p in electricity meter

2007-11-26T10:00:00.001Z

Where: Queens Hospital, Burton-upon-Trent
Listening: Enya - Caribbean Blue
Feeling: Bored

... and it took them at least 1½ Hours to do so!

All in all, it makes one laugh to a large extent. This morning was just one of those typical Monday mornings. Firstly, I cannot get near to the training room because a coded door was closed and no one tells me the code for it. Finally, I get in and discover that actually the entire ground floor of the IT Services block is stuck in the stone age this morning due to a power outage. The chaps upstairs had power, heating etc. Thankfully they did raise a call with estates, yet it was not important enough for them to act until around 9:20am.

Obviously, this didn't bode well for the training course I had scheduled this morning at 9:30. With no time to effectively prep the computers, the decision was made to cancel the course - which was fair enough, as 4 PCs are still currently down as a result. They should be fixed in time for this afternoons session hopefully.

So, what is left of this morning, well... to begin with this morning, the only way we could get a cup of tea was to nick hot water from estates & facilities which they don't particularly like us doing, yet they leave us in the dark - perhaps if we had spears and a hearth for a log fire - we would get by... just! Lack of windows in the training room meant for very difficult reading conditions - so procrastinating with a book was out of the question.

Never mind, just got to find something to occupy my mind for the next 2½ hours! A great opportunity for some alone time with God!

PT = Physical Torture

2007-11-20T11:05:00.001Z

Where: St. Georges, Stafford
Listening: Rachmaninov - Rhapsody on a theme of Paganini - 18th variation
Feeling: Upbeat

PT = Physical Torture??! What is he on about?? If you have done a 60 minute high impact almost non stop workout circuit with a personal trainer at your local gym - then you may know what I mean!

Seriously speaking though, it was enormous fun and the personal trainer added so much to it. For starters... it made a change from just working out alone... there was this constant encouragement to push harder and harder - and if you started to lapse... you got a telling off or it gets worse as they give you press ups.

So what is with this? Well... for yonks I have realised I need to get rid of the excess weight I'm carrying around... I certainly do not dislike myself... but body wise - one area I really do want to change is my abdominal area. Last night doing a PT session was just a taster - I wanted to experience what it was like... I have to admit now that I will definitely do it again... even though my thighs are complaining like a young child would if you took away their favourite toy. No matter... a good swim later this evening will be a nice help as well as a little time in the spa.

Ok, so you've been swimming for ages thought right? Why is this going to be any different? True, that the swimming has been a huge part of my fitness levels improving, and although fantastic exercise, it is at the end of the day mostly cardiovascular. With the gym and PT sessions I can guarantee that I will get a fair share of weight exercises in also. It is weight that burns up fat more than cardio. I like to think I've hit a bit of a good balance really....

Monday: Gym - weight exercises followed by gentle swim
Tuesday: 1 - 2 Mile Swim followed by water aerobics
Wednesday: Gym - weight exercises followed by gentle swim (or whilst Andrew is around - gentle swim, spa etc, followed by a naughty curry!)
Thursday: 1 - 2 Mile Swim followed by water aerobics
Friday: (morning) Spa & Sauna/Steam Room before work

... and on that note - I'm now off to go and get help for possible obsessive compulsive disorder!

Range Rover Arrogance & Pointlessly Closed Roads

2007-11-19T08:10:00.001Z

Where: Queens Hospital, Burton-upon-Trent
Listening: Enya - Caribbean Blue
Feeling: "is it too good to be true?"

I certainly did not expect quite a sudden snow fall last night when driving to Staffordshire. Snow is horrible stuff, albeit it can make driving very interesting - yet going along the A14 just before hitting the M6 at 30mph & less did not seem totally mundane! In fact... it was rather relaxing and comforting that every one on the road had the same idea :o)

The M6 was clear, obviously the gritters had been out on the motorway. Same was said for the M6 Toll, yet when I came off the motorway the off ramp was like a snow sheet - and wham... I managed to quite easily 180 the car... I'm just glad there was no one behind me!

So the snow continued to fall during the night, but thankfully this morning the roads were not too bad at all! I left the guest house a little earlier than usual just in case though... yet there are no warning signs of "beware of arrogant Range Rover drivers" - as I pass a load of parked cars this range rover tries to also do the same despite seeing me there - convinced that he can just "bully" his way through and force me to reverse back... well... he was wrong - it somehow managed to infuriate him so much that he came alongside me with his window down and hurling all manner of abuse and profanity.

My thoughts... "you may have a 4x4 Monstrosity (because lets be honest here - all these big 4x4 vehicles are ugly huge monstrosities of metal, plastic and whatever else) but it does not mean you own the road...". To top it off... he also stalled it as he tried to move again - much to my amusement of course! Truthfully though - I feel sorry for people like that... if the only comfort they can get is to try and make someone else feel very small.

The next little issue was the utter confusion caused by the council who decided to close a busy main road - yet you could still get past and the road was completely empty - nothing going on. I really dislike it when they do that - just no reason for it, no advanced warning - I am seeing more of this and I believe its some pathetic attempt at traffic calming (right, lets just send the morning rush hour traffic through those villages instead!). Needless to say when I reached the other end of the road - I was shouting to other motorists informing them that they can get through... :o)

I need to get my registers for today - it seems to good to be true that I have no training what so ever. Either way - I'm looking forward to going to Bannatyne's tonight and having my first PT session - I'm expecting to get slaughtered in a fitness sense - but heck it should be fun!

The flood receeds...

2007-11-09T12:54:00.002Z

Where: Queens Hospital, Burton-upon-Trent
Listening: Enya - On My Way Home
Feeling: Relieved & Humoured

Excellent, I still have a home to go to and the roads back home are open again! I never actually found out about the tidal surge in the North Sea until late last night after I got in from being in Stoke-on-Trent speaking at Staffordshire University Christian Union meeting. Guess I was too tired to pay the vaguest bit of attention!!!
Fortunately after frantic calls to family back in Norfolk, the chaos was not as bad as expected!

An unexpected twist came when I was trawling the BBC news website and found a nice little article about a flood of bananas in Holland! I have to admit, it cheered the day for sure - yet trying to realise how the owner of the shipment of bananas felt having his fruits looted by the Dutch! ...but apparently they get all sorts come onto the beaches there! (I shall say no more!)
http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/world/europe/7085109.stm

Just one lecture to give today and then I'm done for the week... so, hoping this one will go well and there will be no more people admitted that they believe everything the Sun & other tabloid papers have to say about things! Aside from that - I'm feeling a little sarcastic - perhaps they could come out with some silly things - then I can flex the sarcasm muscle ...after all, they come to the sessions, they get free tea, coffee & biscuits - what more do they want? :o)

Reminiscent of "Aquacise"

2007-11-01T20:51:00.001Z

Where: Colton, Staffordshire
Listening: Sound that a wine glass makes when you run circles round the rim!
Feeling: Invigorated & relaxed - work it out?! lol

"Aquacise" or water aerobics was something I used to really enjoy every Monday & Thursday evening at the local pool back home... tonight I had an experience at Bannatyne's that was Reminiscent of "Aquacise". Albeit that it started a little earlier than Aquacise, it was just as much fun!

The instructor tonight was at first quite shocked to see a male want to do it, yet she was even more shocked when I said there are a few blokes that do it back home! None the less, she was full of passion for it just like Hayley is when she does Aquacise at home.

Following a hard (at times teeth grinding) workout, I had a gentle swim and then unwound in the spa & steam room - now if only the local pool back at home had this little extras... beggars cant be chooses though.

A night to remember that's for sure!

Goose becomes a member at Bannatyne's

2007-11-01T16:23:00.001Z

Where: Stafford
Listening: One Hundred Hours - You Have Been So Good To Me
Feeling: "almost time for a swim!"

So, the end of another day and almost another week is upon me, they seem to be going very quickly; this week in particular has gone very quick - most probably due to the trip to York on Tuesday.

My frustration from lack of swimming has finally been silenced. Last night I joined Bannatyne's in Burton-on-Trent with a membership plan for 12 months which gives me access to other clubs across the country. It was the most flexible option I had - so I took it. I'm glad I did, it felt wonderful swimming last night and a nice stint in the steam room is a nice addition to the swim!

So, yes I will be venturing to Burton in around 20-30 minutes from now! - A pointless post, but what the heck! :o) - oh... and I managed to avoid the temptation to shoot or otherwise run over any trick or treaters last night!

Forget & Stress!

2007-10-29T17:56:00.001Z

Where: Colton, Staffordshire
Listening: Shawn McDonald - Gravity
Feeling: Relieved that the day is over...

Why am I relieved that the day is over? Was it work? Nope.... in fact all the stressy stuff came once I left work... I was as forgetful as ever this week in the fact that I managed to forget to bring my ties with me! Tomorrow I have to drive to York in order to give Evidence at Court. I know for one thing I'd rather be wearing shirt & tie for that.

So after great day at work I figured I'd go out and pick up a couple of ties before heading back to the hotel. After 25 minutes stressing and moaning at my Sat Nav and a call to 118118 to obtain a couple of post codes I find that neither the ASDA, Sainsbury's or Tesco sold any! Me trying to be a cheapskate I guess?! Finally I pop into BHS and manage to pick up a couple of ties.

Then I realise I needed fuel - sod it I thought, I'll grab it tomorrow morning. All that was on my mind was getting back, taking time out and unwinding... I do have a nice bottle of wine here (trying to avoid beer due to my concerns of an developing enlarged beer belly), so that will most certainly play a part... but I'm also thinking curry as well praying and bringing to God the stresses of this afternoon.

Well, the Indian down the road is super, so perhaps a good curry would be very nice indeed!

Interesting Wireless Network

2007-10-26T12:14:00.000+01:00

Where: St. Georges Hospital, Stafford
Listening: Radio 1 *ugh*
Feeling: Relaxed, Humoured

I decided to switch on my laptop today and it came up with finding two wireless networks - intrigued I discover that one of them had a very interesting SSID (Name):

... a fantastic find when inside a hospital! ...made us chuckle thats for sure!!!