Those who know me know that Maths is far from being my strongest skill... in fact, they know that I generally try and avoid any sort of maths if possible... however, the University wants to make us all better at maths which is why I attend maths classes at the University. Improving at maths however, is something I would like very much... however, it feels like such a huge step... I barely scraped a C at GCSE. Ok, a big part of me wants to blame the majority of the class back in high school who disrupted it and sent 3 teachers packing with nervous breakdowns... however, blame will not help now... instead I want to salvage what Maths skill I have and develop in areas of Maths which I am weak...
Well, I have found out that the University literally bends over backwards to support those who want to learn and improve in Maths... the tutorials with Robert at the Dean of Students office are fantastic and I have learnt some new maths skill from these... however, I was not prepared to experience fight or flight feelings through simplifying equations with powers... I literally stood there looking at the whiteboard with this problem that needed simplifying. I was shaking, sweating and to be honest, just wanting to go somewhere private and cry...
It was a truly rotten feeling, I felt stupid, silly and thick... and now I fear this happening again... fortunately, I'm not alone, there are others who today said they had the same concerns with their maths ability. Myself and another student are going to get together tomorrow to begin working through some of the exercises in the Quantitative Methods textbook.
Additionally, I've decided to invest in some private tuition to help bolster my understanding...
Thirdly, I need to hold on the belief and my faith that Jesus will meet me in this fear... and that his love will render it powerless :) I know I can overcome this... and I know I can improve my maths ability....
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